1. Sharing the fact that I am Bipolar 1.
2. After getting clean my symptoms amplified and my life was out of control worse than in active addiction.
3. The effects of my behavior on my wife and kids.
4. I admitted to myself it is a problem, went to therapy specifically for it, and went to a doctor for help.
5. This lead to a severe episode and many negative consequences, but I had the support I needed to to heal for real.
6. I learned that dealing with addiction and bipolar have many parallels. Bipolar people need meds to be stable. It isn't my character that caused many of my actions and failures through my life.
These are some amazing posts! Thank you all for sharing...
#1 I had to over come wanting to get everything done at once..Compulsive Behavior to have it all done at the same time and done YESTERDAY.
#2 Taking Drugs to get me wired up so I could get this all done. BUT I was able to walk away in the past when I got burned out on the drugs, until my first hydo with oxys..Off I went to the Methadone with the Adderral..Like legal crank.
#3 I was getting to out of control by what I was using and how I was getting it. I was nodding out standing up in the Kitchen or other places after I was up all night for many nights..I almost choked on food a few times when I passed out while eating it. My family was noticing the difference in me.
#4 I told my Family and Dr what I was really doing..I needed help so I also went to a treatment place for the 2nd time.
#5 Feel and look so much better..Do not drive my family nuts any more.
#6 Yes Life is to short and I want to Live longer. All of this started me on a learning Journey..I have been studying the Map of the Brain and what Drugs hit what areas of the Brain. I am able to share this all to other addicts in a scientific way..Even studying what they might be able to do at a dr office to see if we might have the D2 that could be to low..This and environment and other things that can cause us to become addicted..I really want the schools to pass this info around.lol
Bless U my Dear!!!!
1. What difficulty did you overcome?
I overcame Hepatitis C
2. Describe the events that led to the situation.
My years of drug addiction and careless behavior led me to contact HCV. I became sick and hit rock bottom. Feeling like I was near death, I had a moment of clarity in which I realized how precious life is and can be.
3. How did you identify that a change was needed?
I knew that if I didnt stop using that I would die. My liver was taking a beating. I also saw how much I was hurting my family specifically my sons. I wanted to be around for them and this means I had to stop using in order to save my life. All the things I had tried for years had not worked so I needed to do something different.
4. Address the steps you took to resolve the situation.
The first step was getting clean. I stopped using drugs because I knew that I needed to be clean or if I treated the HCV and was still using...I could possibly end up getting re-infected. After I had a couple of years clean, I began treatment for the HCV
5. What was the outcome?
The HCV was cured
6. What have you learned from this experience that will help you in this program?
I have learned that life is not to be taken granted for. That every breath I take is a gift from God. Ive learned that no matter how bad life can seem at times, there really is a way to make it better if I put forth the effort.
Yes Rosy, I will share my essay when I write it.
Will you be sharing your essay at some point? I'd LOVE to read it if so!!!!
1. What difficulty did you overcome? Telling people I LOVED that I used Adderall Thursday
2. Describe the events that led to the situation.(the situation about telling them) I felt guilt, guilt that I didnt reach out, guilt that I used, guilt that if i told I would hurt them..(I hurt me not people)...*The situation leading me to use* my dads bday being exausted depression needing a pick me up(all excuses I know)
3. How did you identify that a change was needed? I dont like secrets and I felt they should know my heart felt bad
4. Address the steps you took to resolve the situation. I opened up, i told them I answered any questions they asked 100% honestly and asked for forgiveness
5. What was the outcome? Honestly i dont know yet, I hope I dont lose them...but ever action has an opposite and equal reaction
6. What have you learned from this experience that will help you in this program? I have learned that I need to reach out, i have learned that I can rely on people and that they love me as much as I love them, and I also learned hurting people su*ks and I am so sorry