I am 3 months clean and still having a hard time getting out. Pre-pills I was very social and had a huge circle of friends. After 10 years of addiction I have no friends at all. The pills numbed me out, even when I wasnt high off them. I just didnt care to go out. I couldnt have a drink without nodding off or I was going through the time before my next pills and feelling sick.
I have to do some serious self talk to get out the door. I am working at finding things to do but its hard starting over. At least I am on the up side!
After a while I did yes. At first, it was all about feeling better. I didnt do anything! I was very depressed and lethargic. Actually a month or two (or three maybe?) my friends got very worried about me and bum-rushed my apartment LOL. I wasnt returning calls or emails. I wasnt going out. I was really just sick, tired and depressed. It took everything to just make it to work and home and to get a little dinner on the table. But they kept on bugging me and once I started the exercising (walking and cardio kickboxing) things improved very much. Actually once I began to mentally and physically recover I had a resurgence of myself. I felt ALIVE. Happy. Social. Started going out dancing again. And truly enjoying myself. I felt comfortable and happy in my own skin.
Healing takes time. Dont give up on yourself or your sobriety.
Ty so much. I've been doing the vitamins but not the excersising. I'll start that. Putt membership to the y to good use. When u guys stopped ir doc did u want to do more stuff and hang out with ur freinds. B social? Ty Angie
I was the same way on pills and on suboxone or any opiate. For me opiates have ALWAYS made me isolate. There was a lot of extra fatigue I felt when on suboxone. Try exercise. About 3/4 through my sub treatment I started seriously exercising. Walking, jogging. It really helped with motivation. Stay on your path. Just try to make some adjustments (like exercise and vitamins).
Ang,
When i was on methadone, i experienced this very same thing. It is not only you. Hopefully you will get your social groove back!
Don't give up. Stay strong and keep positive!!
Jackyxo