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[narla]

140 days clean,does it matter?

[avisg]

Then get to the bottom of your addiction you already know what lies there .Besides getting help for that you have to get straight addiction help or you are just going to conitue to swap one thing for another you have to be the one to decided when you have had enough you may not be at that point yet ....When you get there i bet its going to have some recovery care involved.

[narla]

Thank you for validating my feelings, It's something I can't help it just is what it is,I want to feel but I can't.I think I've been hurt too many times and if I don't feel then nothing can hurt me,actions hurt but sometimes words hurt more than you realise.You think you've dealt with things but you haven't and it eats away at you until your lost in yourself,I'm sick of being hurt.that's why I ask myself if the 140 days matters when so much more is going on.People say get over it forget things that have been said but it eats away at your soul and then you feel your nothing.
  

[narla]

Everything is so confusing,10yrs ago I gave up cigarettes C/T and replaced them with an addiction to collecting things,then I gave up alcohol and codeine C/T and have replaced them with 2 new addictions.When does life become normal with no addictions at all.I can stop using and it doesn't bother me,It's the replacements that bother me.Denise

[PromisedLand]

I was very happy to hear folks well wishes when I hit a week, a month,a year and so on...we come here for the help and support of people who really care and when the people they (or we) help are successful we are naturally going to be very happy for them...There are many to this very day (some 2 years later {with a minor set back} ) I wish I could hug and hug and hug...

I'm sure Narla one day you'll reach the point where you'll look back and see where you were and where you are and 1) be very proud of yourself and 2)be very proud of yourself and 3) think of one or 2 people who in someway helped you along whether they knew it or not...There certainly is no condecension from us....

and there's nothing wrong with the way you feel now, either.


Jim

[dominosarah]

Well Narla i am sorry you feel that way.  Hopefully at some point you will feel it.  sara

[narla]

It just doesn't mean anything to me-everyone says 140 days congrats,well done,you should be proud, I just don't feel it,Sometimes all the accolades sound condescending.I don't feel anything.  Denise-Thanks for your reply