depression

[addicted32]

When do u think your hazard to your own self??  The depression is so bad.  What do u do??  Take a pill or sit in bed and just want to die?  

[ang_811]

I can tell u vit d helps to put u in a good mood and st johns wort is a vitamin also that promotes good mood and works I take it all the time.

[addicted32]

Im starting to think hes an *******.  He says you need "tough love"  You begged and lied to get pills now deal with it.  Actually what he said today.  It feels like its the end.  This is tappering down it feels like this???  I had to take one just to eat a hamburger.  I keep fighting with myself not to take any.

[avisg]

wow I dont agree with your boyfriend about rehab. I will tell you just like anything If you truly dont want to get clean then you wont. If you REALLY do yes rehab if possible would be the best but for most of us its not possible .It does sound like you are having major depression and I would look into another doctor that would put u on an antidepressant because you need it which is normal .Many of us have needed them I used supplements that worked like an AD and got myself outside as much as I could sun alone helps so much .U can make it threw this .. just keep going min by min hour by hour they do add up.

[addicted32]

its really bad because of not having my daily drugs.  When i saw him Friday I asked him for wellbutrin and he said he wasn't comfortable with doing that because of the oxycontin.  That is why no clonodine either or ativan.  I used ambien from another dr and now im out.  I have to be able to function that is why I have not thrown out the pills the dr gave me, he decide to do a 15mg extended release every 12 hours.  For 1 week.  I have not taken it yet but I have a baby here and need to sane.  I have no thoughts in harming him or anything but i do feel like dropping him off and going to rehab where someone will take care of me.  But theres nobody that will watch him and like my boyfriend said rehab doesn't do anything for you its a waste of time you'll just be doing a pill again in a month.  

[dominosarah]

Did you talk with your doctor about your depression?

[addicted32]

I must be the only one here going crazy

[addicted32]

Im suppossed to be tapering after I went 4 dys without one.  I took one on Friday and I'm suppossed to take one every 12 hours and I haven't take one yet.  Not sure if i shoulld toss them or do what dr says.  I hate this depression thats why im asking do u take one to prevent your brain from doing something stupid.  This should be fun im all out of my ambien too that was my drug to help me through withdrawls.