I got clean/sober 26 years ago. I was cross addicted to pretty much everything that could make you slow down and smile. Stayed clean for probably 7-8 years then started using benzos and pain pills.
I haven't had a drink in 26 years. But not clean and sober since I have used pain pills for about 18 years. But that was a secret. I believe that if you really are an addict (which means that you are using something compulsively to make things more tolerable) You will just find something else to take the place of DOC.
I am an addict. I can become addicted to anything, Coca-cola, chocolate, sugar, pills, TV, shopping on line, jam, on an on.All I need is to find something that makes me feel good and takes away the pain that is an inevitable part of life-- depression, self-consciousness, angst, boredom, worry, fear, and doubt. For me it is something to watch all of the time. The world is a mine field. The danger is in the addictive potential, the use of something outside of my self compulsively to help me through. Oh by the way I never ever thought I had a PROBLEM with alcohol until I tried to stop.
I was taught you have to give it all up. It is too easy to get out of control.It is too easy to substitute a substance for people or change or action. And being an addict, it is way too easy to fool yourself and everyone else into thinking you are okay.
This is one that you are going to get alot of differing opinions .I don't drink I stopped when I got clean I never had an issue with drinking at this point .Then I started to think how many years I went without abusing pain meds for years.You are really venerable for crossing addiction.I stay away from anything mood altering chemicals.To be honest with you I don't know anyone that has long term sobriety that still drinks or if drinking is there issue does other things .What type of recovery care are you getting
Hey sweetie.. Hate to be the bearer of BAD NEWS but..
ONE ROAD LEADS TO THE OTHER!
You have 30 days CLEAN from opiates.. that's HUGE.. but.. if you're drinking.. you're not clean...and.. you're only FANNING A FLAME..
Hang in there and just remember that drinkin' makes you NOT think!
Hugs and prayers you way!