makin friends

[cowboy1986]

Hey I'm new. Been dealing with opiates and tabs and alcohol. Well if y'all would add me to yalls friends if y'all have any of the same problems so we can talk? And maybe me or you could help each other out. Thanks. Waitin on friend requests.

[my_mayberry]

it's a tough road to sobriety. people here tend to be very welcoming. you should have no problems making friends.

[cowboy1986]

That's an awesome testimony. It gives me hope.  I want to be done with all the pills for good.I want to be a clean and sober man with good things goin for me, and without all the weight of addiction on my shoulders. Its a heavy burden to cary, addiction, I don't know how I've made it as long as I have. My wife stuck through 5 years of it with me, I didn't realy think oi had a problem, but I was wrong. I just didn't admit it to myself. I was so stupid. How could I let these drugs take over my life, I thought I was stronger than that. How could I lose the one person who loved me more than anyone or anything, all for a temporary high. A high that wasn't even that good most of the time. O started with a loratab, I always liked beer, so I started taking tabs and drinking almost every day, then it became everyday, oh and smokin weed too. All that adds up a dollar at a time. Just didn't realize it. Anyways about a year ago I started takin oxyconton, which cost more but felt a whole lot better. Still taking tabs too. And never qut the drinkin or smokin either. But anyways here lately for the last 6 months or so Methadone has been my DOC, so basicaly in the last 6 months I have been overtaking methadones, oxycontons, loratabs, weed, beer, and cigarrettes. A lot everyday. Needless to say.  It cost me almost every dollar I made, plus what I could get from my wife, who has left me, I don't blame her at all, so I've got to get itt together. I want to be completely done with all of it, down to the cigs. Period. I want to be completely clean, and I want to feel good and be happy afterward, which I don't know if that will happen. I just know I can't half *** it. I have to do it right. Tell me what u think.

[bama88]

Hi cowboy. Making friends here is easy. We all want a common goal. To quit the substance abuse for good. And to better ourselves and help others. We all have the same problems. Well... Different problems in our lives but you know what I mean. Opiates have ruled our life and we want to be in control.

When I came here I was a mess. A big mess. I went thru so much and still am. But I am still here. On planet earth. I am still standing.

My background..... I have been an addict since I was 17. It runs in my genes. Both sides. I first smoked pot. And drank. Is take breaks from substances. Sometimes for years. Then when life would stress me out instead of facing it I would take something. To take the edge off.  I've been thru a lot. Whew. In 2004 my husband was hit head on almost died....I drank then found pills. Did some other stuff....all the time telling myself I got this. But it had me. I didn't understand that.

Then in 2006 I fell of a ladder and hurt myself...then I really found pills. And pain.....

2008. My daughter became handicapped. She was 10. She had three major hip surgeries. I had knee surgeries inbetween too......

2011 a knee replacement. Finally. And more and more pills. Now I am snorting oxies. That eventually lead to a car repo. I did retrieve my car. But it wasn't fun.....

I came here pretty beat down and up. Started to share my crazy life.....started to see I WASN'T ALONE.  It was the first time I ever asked for help. The first time I let anyone in. And it helped.

At my height of my oxy addiction I was taking over 240 mgs a day. Sometimes 320..ok mostly 320. How and why I am still here only GOD knows.

I can honestly admit I love being high. To numb up....but I don't like it anymore.  When one forgets and blacks out....bad things can happen.

I lived on the edge of insanity for a very long time. And it caught up to me. Every way thinkable. Finacially mentally. Socially. All of it came crashing on my head.

Anyways. I came here in Nov. Flushed all my pills. More surgeries. More relapses. But I really wanted to stop. For good. But didn't know how. And all these wonderful strangers helped. Listened.  And supported me. Thru thin and thin.

Well.....I am 83 days clean from oxy. Not an easy task. And another problem came. Ms. So I have to be healthy. I want to live. I want to live pill free.

Living pill free is hard. Very hard. Basically I am learning how to live all over.
And it is a challenge. With tremedous rewards. Big rewards.

I believe only addicts can help addicts. We get it. Non addicts don't. They can't. How can they relate?? They think its as simple as turning off a light switch. Just stop. But addiction is complicated.

Addiction doesn't define us tho. Actually we can use it to our advantage. We can learn from our mistakes. We can and will he better than we were before. It will......wait and see.

Anyways I will add you to my friends list.

Nice to meet you

[selfinduced]

Hey cowboy, Nice to meet you. What is your doc? Where are you in your efforts to end this addiction. We're here for you.....

[dominosarah]

Hi cowboy, i'm sara~

We are all here for the same reason, our addiction.  We are all at different stages in our addiction/recovery.  You will find alot of support and honesty here.  Look around our home here, get comfortable and let us know what is going on.