Saw Sub Doctor for the last time :)

[Sad_Woman]

I went in yesterday for my post jump appointment with my sub doc. I had been off sub for 2 weeks and for the first time in a few years I peed clean. No opiates found :) it felt good and the doc looked surprised. Apparently he forgot I planned to jump a couple weeks ago. He gave me a big hug and told me he was proud of me. It was a great moment. To go from being an oxy fiend to now being completely clean feels awesome. It was not easy to get here and Lord knows I will always need to keep my guard up but the end result is soooo worth it :)

[laurel453]

you both are two strong women....   SW  and Anewlife4me

[ANewLife4Me]

That is so awesome to hear!  What an inspiration you are, truly.  You've showed me it really can be done.  You are one strong woman, that's for sure :)

[Sad_Woman]

Thank you :D Gnarly I know your right. I'm going to get a counsellor. I had one but stopped going months ago. Think it's time I called her.

I'll always believe the devil and these pills are partners in our destruction. As soon as I got clean the tests started with my dogs death being a really tough one. I've stayed strong but I know I need to get some help to keep strong and moving forward. There were many reasons that led me into addiction. My body might be free of drugs but the brain that got me here is still a brain prone to addiction. That'll never change.

So yeah I'm going to give the counseling another shot. Between financial crisis, losing my dog and high stress in my life with everything right now, I know it would be wise to get help. I feel like I'm in a pressure cooker! But I can't use no matter what-and I don't want to. Suffering over months to get here left quite an impression. I never want to go through that again and more importantly I would never ever do that to my baby.

[laurel453]

i will call you SW... Sad is a bit ¿sad ? now  ;)....  

[gnarly_1]

CUDOS TO YOU im so proud of you doing this for you and your baby you made it your clean and sober....now I know we beat this drum a lot but what are you going to do for aftercare....first let me tell you without aftercare I would have crashed and burned 100 times over with it im just a few days shy of 2 ys clean this is a critical part of recovery so get plunged in somewhere
good luck with your new baby and God bless the both of you......Gnarly

[littlebit667]

very good news!  You are doing good and I am glad the doc saw that and gave you a hug.  We all need those hugs.  Consider you hugged here as well!  

[donewitis]

That got me smilin'..Free Woman. That's what we all want..freedom from the chains that bind..that keep us from being who we really are. I'm thrilled for you.

[Sad_Woman]

Thinking it's time to change the name..maybe Free Woman?? Lol I'll think of something! :)

[laurel453]

yeah, really proud too.. Congrats, Sad :)

[donewitis]

Yea it is...so worth it. Congratulations...you sound like a Grateful_Woman :)

[dominosarah]

I am so incredibly proud of you~~~sara