12 step program

[lizardking1450]

hello all,i am a recovering addict...well its been 31 days today..what is really sad is that ive been a addict for 41years.you name it ive done it.back in 2009 I went to a n/a meeting and found out there were people like me out there with stories that made my story sound like nothing.i really do not understand the 12 steps to much.i do try to make a meeting 2 times a week.i feel great when I leave..i do not have a sponsor or have I worked the 12 steps.is there anyone out there that's goes to n/a meetings and does not work the steps? im very lost when it comes to understanding the 12 steps..does anyone have any advice for me?

[lizardking1450]

im a very shy person.i do have a home group and are very comfortable with my friends..i have a sponsor per say.he tells me a question a day.the first step has 69 questions..i don't share a lot about my feelings.i guess that's another problem..thanks for your commet..happy new year.

[On2better]

Have you shared in meetings about your confusion? I can really relate to your post. The steps seemed really confusing to me too. I just work them with a sponsor to the best of my ability. I found that sing the step working guide and basic text really helped me to understand them. All we can do is our best. Ten as we work the steps again and again we can fine tune our process. It won't ever be perfect, it's a lifelong program. I would start by getting some of the literature and sharing your thoughts in meetings. Best wishes

[Heather8448]

90 meetings 90 days u dont have to understand it thats what a sponsor is for!!! I have a friend in the rooms who used fpr 43 years he just had his 4 year clean anniverary, u can do this if u want it u get connected im 6 months clean  and on step one....

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

I do attend meetings regularly and i do work the steps. The steps are designed to be worked through a sponsor. You need someone who has worked them and can give you guidance. If you are trying to understand them alone it is understandable how they can be confusing. Also, having a sponsor is having a life line. I first suggest you choose a sponsor and then see if there are not step meetings in your area where you can get a better understanding. I hope it all works out for you and congratulations on getting clean!!!!!!!!!