Still here. Still having bad days and worse nights!

[refills]

It's been awhile now and I do have some good days scattered in with the, get by days. Then there are the really terrible times. I woke up this morning with 3 basic things to do beside waking up, which is the easy part, sleep is still an big issue. Basic things I need to do. Get dressed, make the bed, and go outside and get the 2 garbage containers. Why do I feel like these simple chores are next to impossible to accomplished? I'm hurting so bad at times I just freak out. I'm at the mercy of my own brain. It surely is misfiring. I need help and there is nothing more anyone can do. Just get by the next day is still the mantra. Thanks for listening. Ike.

[dedicatedtostop]

I am getting there! I actually don't feel bad. I swear by the B12... I take 2 2500mcg in the AM... I will take popping Vitamins over pain meds any day!
Keep up the great work!

[refills]

That's crazy. I stick a super B-12 under my tongue everyday. I can't tell if it's working though. The doc tells me that my bodies chemistry is all messed up. I guess it should be.The good news for you is that I do fell better on some days. So take that as something to look forward to. Good luck and God Bless dedicated.

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey 75 Days is AMAZING!!! I look up to that!! I know what you mean by simple task feeling like a " Chore "... I am on day 12 of a past of Norco abuse. Even taking a shower seems like a chore. I force myself to get up do things, no matter how bad I feel. It seems to help. I also take vitamin B12 Sublingual. 2500mcg... They are cherry flavored and dissolve under your tongue. It's an energy metabolism booster and I swear by them!! I have personally taken them for years. You should give it a try.
Keep up all the great work, you know how far you have already come and each day will only get better!

[refills]

Thanks guys. Yeah pushing myself is the right answer but I don't have tell you that it's hard right now. I did perk up yesterday afternoon. then nightfall and the anxiety hit me hard again. The Trazodone kicked in and I feel asleep. I don't understand all the stress and then I do. Time, pushing yourself, and understanding are the things that push my anxiety strings. It's been what seems like such a long time recovering but such a small time comparing my using time.

I do see doctors and attend group on a somewhat regular basis now. Neurontin and the Traz are becoming my friends right now although I'm not sure if I like the way they make me feel. Today is alright. Hoping tonight treats me well enough not to stress in front of our grand-daughter we're watching tonight. They are leaving their son at home because they know he'll stress me out to much. That hurts a lot. Still here after 75 days clean. Today is a good day, right Lilly and others? Take care.

[Amandag78]

Hi Ike, im sorry your still not feeling ok, but as Lu sais, you really must push yourself to do things.  I learnt the hard way : )
I only have to walk ten steps to my outside bin, and still, i put my bag full of rubbish right out my front door and my partner puts it out when he gets home from work, cause i cant be bothered.
I know things feel like a drag and such an effort at times, but all we can wait for, is time to heal us.
Its really good that you are having some good days now and soon they will outweigh the bad.
I hope you havr an easy weekend, with the least stress,
Take care : )

[Lilly1955]

Sleep is still an issue for me too. But, last night I tried 2 valerian root capsules, 1 melatonin, 1 GABA, calm drink, lavender oil and a cup with 2 bags sleepy time tea and 150 mg trazodone and I got some sleep! Not a full night but enough that today I could handle the anxiety. It was a good day. Everything I took are natural herbs from a health food store not addicting. I take 2 valerian root 3x a day really helps with the anxiety and muscle pain. GABA helps your neurotransmitters re connect the melatonin at night gets your circadian rhythm back. The only thing prescribed is the Trazodone which my Dr said is non narcotic. The health store also makes amazing healthy shakes. I hope it works tonight. Ask your health food place what natural non addicting stuff can help your symtoms. I did not think it would work but it did!

[lulu747]

The thing is, you gotta force yourself to do things.  Are you involved in aftercare Ike?  It's important.  As in, the MOST important thing.  You need to give your sobriety meaning and structure.  You need to learn how to live again.  This is the best way to do so.  Don't worry about the mundane details, focus instead on how to heal from the inside (the soul) out.
It WILL get easier.  I promise.
Lu