Wow your post brought tears to my eyes. Words cannot describe how proud of you I am. I am so so sorry about your Grandmother, but I am beyond thrilled at your mind set, your determination, and about the discoveries you have made about yourself in this process.
You must just keep walking this path. Step up the support whenever you feel that spinning in your head. I agree that your last statement is profound.
The fact of the matter is, we have NO control over what happens in life- all we have is the power of our choices. Keep making these brave choices and your life will open up in ways you never thought possible.
Sending big hugs and wishing you peace....
Lu
I am very happy for you. You are truely an inspriation. I can't wait until I feel better myself.
So glad you came back and posted! Congrats on 16 DAYS!!!
Reading your post really tugged at my heart strings. Your grandma getting to see you CLEAN....oh my! What a gift you gave her. And making amends with your DAD after not seeing him for 4 years? Glorious!
I'm so glad you are doing this NOW....you have your WHOLE life ahead of you. Also happy to hear you are going to meetings and learning about STAYING clean. Hopefully, you have changed your playmates....AND your playgrounds...and cut off your sources.
Hope you'll keep posting and give us updates.....not to mention post here on the forum to all the newcomers that so need to hear it can be done~
Your last sentence is PROFOUND:
"Losing Grandma isn't my choice, Losing my sobriety is my choice."
OMG! What a great post, I am at 41hrs, last night was pretty bad, but just knowing here in a couple of days things will get better helps a lot. 16 days is awesome. Sorry about your Grandma, my prayers go out to you and your family!!!!