3 years free :)

[merrymaria]

Hello everyone.   Just wanted to brag that I am 3 years free today July 5, 2011.  Thank you so much to those that helped me through this horrible chapter of my life.   I don t know where I would be if I had not found med help back in 2008.  The support I received was outstanding.  
I m still seeing the drug deals all around me....my former dealer asked me if I would sell his pills and for every 20 I sold I could keep 2....WTH.  I told him NO way.  It made me sick to think he could even ask such a thing to a recovering addict.   It s all about the high dollars these dealers make...ha  
I guess Im one of the lucky ones who never feels the desire to go back.  I hated my life so much (being an addict) that I never want to go there again.  I m not going to let stupid pills control my life...ever.
To those just starting out...hang in there tight.  I know you feel like dirt physically and mentally but I promise it gets so much better.   Withdrawing from these demons was one of the worst things I ve ever experienced but so worth the pain and awful mental depression.  It gets better...honest...it just takes time.  Look up to your higher power and I promise you will make it...Don t look back ever.  
Good luck everyone...May our God continue to bless us and keep us strong and bonded.  Love to all... thank you for  
helping me make it....Maria

[vicki595]

Great to see you back!!   Good for you!!  Wow!!

xoxo

[merrymaria]

I m sorry you don t get the support you need but do this for yourself...You and only you.  cravings bite is the butt...They do go away in time.  Make the next couple months dedicated to you...YOU come first right now.

[ImDONENoMore]

What a great post merrymaria - so inspirational.  Thank you for coming back and letting all of us know how much better life will get.

I'm almost one year (around 20 days shy) clean and can not believe the difference in my life.  It's great to know it's only going to get better.

Thank you.  :)

[Scared441]

Hi Jerry - you're absolutely right about your mind having to be in the right place.  I want to be free of them, but I don't know if I want it bad enough...I'm still craving them so bad that I think my mind isn't in the right place...I don't know.  I too am glad I found this forum, I need people to talk to apparently...I've been shutting myself in my room and not answering the phone, so I need some sort of communication I guess.

[Scared441]

Thank you Merrymaria - I really need that right now.  I am in agony.  I dont't know if you read my post but I don't get much support from my husband, my addiction just seems to anger him and I don't get the love and support that I need.  It's like if I can just take a few pills and feel good, we'll get along and everything is fine.  This isn't right.  Anyway, thank you.

[merrymaria]

Thank you so much...
Scared441...day2 will soon be a distant memory.  I m praying for you.  It took me about 9 weeks to really feel good.  It seems like a long time but 9 weeks compared to a free lifetime seems minimal.  We can all do this.  We are all brought together for some reason I believe.  If you get a chance listen to this song.  It really helped me in my early days of recovery.  Good luck everyone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uq2sCra4rE&feature=channel_video_title