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Dr. Visit today
Ok... Originally I'm going to the dr because my red blood cell count was extremely low. He wants to do more blood work. I've been trying to change my diet a little to help with the blood cells. He'll do more blood work today. While I'm there, after I left that msg for the nurse, and Bc I want my life back... I'm going to talk to him about my addiction. I have to. I thank each of you so much for your encouragement, but most of all your prayers. I feel I have walked away from God while on this wild ride. I'm just glad He hasn't left me. Please keep praying. My appt is at 1pm.
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Oh that's right, you have said that before. The reason i was asking was i wondered if you had talked to them about your addiction. Not sure that is such a good idea at this point to talk with your daughter with your husband being abusive. That right there is hard enough for her. I get rather "confused" at times!!! lol
She's 14. She's a great child. Never been in trouble at school, straight a's, very Godly child who thinks her mama is a saint. :(
it's true like kyle said.. telling my Dr. was one of the hardest things I have ever done.. I felt sick to my stomach at first, actually.. the pride from doing this didn't come til much later. hubby would tell me how proud he was of me and I would grumble about that under my breath and walk away from him... But it did come, and the feeling was such a relief, and that feeling caught me by surprise. I wasn't expecting to feel relief. But I did.
75 hours clean!!!!! I'm past the "worst" of the w/d... Which haven't been too terribly bad. I'm just thankful I'm on the straight and narrow. I'm gonna kick every roadblock out of the way!!!! Too many small things in life this week have made me thankful to be alive.
Hey girl! Awesome job!! You sound really postive too! So happy for you.
Does Hubby know everything now too, and will be able to support you?
There's no stopping you now...just keep kickin the ole dragon in the nuts!!!
Really.....not kidding, imagine your cravings as something or someone you loathe and visualize kicking (it) right in the ole walnuts...BAM! and down (it)
goes!! Boooyaaaahhhh!!!!
proud of ya girl.
hugs :o}
Does Hubby know everything now too, and will be able to support you?
There's no stopping you now...just keep kickin the ole dragon in the nuts!!!
Really.....not kidding, imagine your cravings as something or someone you loathe and visualize kicking (it) right in the ole walnuts...BAM! and down (it)
goes!! Boooyaaaahhhh!!!!
proud of ya girl.
hugs :o}
So, there's one thing to consider / to be aware of during this detox. You have put up some pretty major roadblocks relative to accessing pills. And your head knows this. The last time you were here you had not come clean with your doc, so the prospect of getting more pills was always there, and thus mentally at least, your detox was not as bad because you knew that you could get more meds.
Now that's not so, and in the days & weeks to come your addict's mind will be yelling at you; you'll start thinking of ways to get pills, ways to get around the fact that you told your doc that you're an addict. So this time the mental side of withdrawal will be harder.
I just wanted to warn you. When I told my doc it wasn't too bad, but then about a month in to clean time panic hit - I couldn't get more meds from my doctor, I had told my wife and family everything and they knew what to watch for.
Hang in there.
K
Now that's not so, and in the days & weeks to come your addict's mind will be yelling at you; you'll start thinking of ways to get pills, ways to get around the fact that you told your doc that you're an addict. So this time the mental side of withdrawal will be harder.
I just wanted to warn you. When I told my doc it wasn't too bad, but then about a month in to clean time panic hit - I couldn't get more meds from my doctor, I had told my wife and family everything and they knew what to watch for.
Hang in there.
K
SO proud of you! That took lots of courage and shows that you're ready to reclaim your life! Way to go!
Hopefully, once you're feeling better and start working on your recovery, you can finally work towards getting out of that abusive relationship. You'll never have a chance to be truly healthy and happy staying in that environment. It will put your sobriety at risk too.
One thing at a time, but hopefully in the not so distant future, you will break free from THAT bondage as well. Keep putting a plan together like you're doing, and don't be afraid to ask for help. There will be lots of community resources. You can start by calling a women's shelter and asking them for info on where to start.
Blessings to you.
Hopefully, once you're feeling better and start working on your recovery, you can finally work towards getting out of that abusive relationship. You'll never have a chance to be truly healthy and happy staying in that environment. It will put your sobriety at risk too.
One thing at a time, but hopefully in the not so distant future, you will break free from THAT bondage as well. Keep putting a plan together like you're doing, and don't be afraid to ask for help. There will be lots of community resources. You can start by calling a women's shelter and asking them for info on where to start.
Blessings to you.
I agree! Praying for you all as I lay my head down, thanking God we all had one more day! Love to all!
Yes you are doing great! The best thing to do is exactly what you are doing! Baby steps. One foot in front of the other and one choice at a time! NO TURNING BACK!
Thank you so much! I may do that!
Right now I have zero appetite or thirst (forcing it), slight ache (3 Tylenol usually take care if it enough to keep me side tracked. Runny nose (beginning to run less). Been working all week to stay busy. Pretty good for 53'ish hours! Right??
Right now I have zero appetite or thirst (forcing it), slight ache (3 Tylenol usually take care if it enough to keep me side tracked. Runny nose (beginning to run less). Been working all week to stay busy. Pretty good for 53'ish hours! Right??
Look at you! I am so very proud of you and YOU should be so proud of yourself! You are on your way to freedom! Its just a few days of WD hell as you know and after the physical you can start working on the mental aspect! Mama, I KNOW the horrors of abuse and how devastating it can be on so many levels! I want you to know that their IS A WAY OUT and when you get to that point if you would like to talk please feel free to PM anytime...
I've talked a my mom about a possibility of staying with her if I have to. So... I'm working on it.
You must really feel amazing. I'm sorry you're dealing with an abusive husband. You will be better able to deal with it with a clear head. Welcome to your new life :-)
I wish you all the strength in the world this time around. And with this strength, I hope you are finally able to leave this abusive husband of yours. You deserve better than that, and with the clarity that comes from sobriety, I hope you see that for yourself soon. :)
I attend church regularly. At my church we have workout classes, small group, etc. I plan to (after w/d), get back in those exercise classes and work my tail off!!! I plan to find another 5k to run.... THAT will be my new addiction!!!!!!
Maybe it's time to join a "Pilates class" wink, wink. I really hope you find a way to get in church, meetings, counseling, or something to help you along this path. Where there is a will, there is a way.
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