I apologize if I sounded insensitive in MY post. I didn't think I was, and i certainly would never try to be intentionally. I don't judge anyone for their situation or circumstances, for I wouldn't want to be judged. That's not what this place is for.
i apologize if me thinking the benzos were a bad idea offended you in anyway, but I still stick to that idea, personally. And you are right. Everyone has to do what is right for them. I just wanted to try and help, and I still wish you all the best .
And yes, I realize I'm early on in this game, and I DO have a ways to go. But five days in, I'm happy, feeling good, and moving on to the future. And no pills are coming with me.
Hope you have a good day, and good luck to you.. whatever you decide.
Thank you Lucky! That's all I was looking for.
I appreciate your words of encouragement readynow81 ...I really do. Everyone who quits has their own reasons for it and shouldn't be corrected for it. I turned 40 in September and it hit me pretty hard. I was going to end up dead of an OD if I didn't stop when I did. I started taking PK's for my back. I have Scoliosis and it's been getting progressively worse with age. It became a habit after time. I have an addictive personality. I started with Loritab w/ Methadone. I moved up to 100mg Morphine a day. I kicked that. I started taking the 1/4 of a Roxy because it gave me some pep and relieved my pain for work. I quit before and I never had to go through what I just did.
I couldn't take the sleepless nights and depression going through my detox. Going cold turkey on the amount I was doing can be dangerous. Day 3 of being clean is commendable, but you have a ways to go. Yeah... I'm justifying my use of Xanax. If I didn't have something for sleep and anxiety. I would have gone insane. Sorry if I'm coming off as insensitive. I just went through 3 weeks of hell and 2 weeks later I'm feeling like I'm back at square one.
I too was in a similar situation as you. I was using about 20-25 roxy 30mg per day before I quit. I can tell you that you got yourself in a bit of a pickle with the xanax. I also have a script for it and was taking it after my detox for a good month or two. And when I pulled off of that I had almost the exact same w/d as I did off the roxys. My stomach was tight in the morning, I was chilled, sweats, headache, and all the other. The w/d you are feeling is not any physical w/d off the opiates if you are a month clean. The only thing you can do here is fight it out again and get through a week of similar w/d. Us addicts must watch ourselves everyday because there are so many other things out there we can so easily become addicted to. I hope that you are able to overcome all of this and get sober. You will feel so much better off of them. Goodluck -john
I really hope that you can pull through this and stop using ALL pills. Using the benzos will just prolong it. I'm not an expert by any means, I'm on day 3 clean and its not easy but the work is worth the reward. You shouldnt quit to punish yourself, you should quit to better yourself. You need to be positive, and I know its hard. But please believe that there is more to life than what youve been allowing yourself. keep posting, tjis is a wonderful helpful place and the people on here are on on your side. rooting for you. if you need help or encouragement, im here. take a deep breath and really allow yourself to feel.facing the addiction and deciding to do this for a better life is the first step. if u r having back pain try advil and hot baths or a heating pad. thats what i do now and it does help. i wish you lots of luckand am sending positive thoughts and energy your way.