486 days clean but

[butch798]

i am going to surgery on sept 30th.it will be a 5 disc laminoplasty.i fought so hard to get here and now i got to be on drugs again .i am scared of the surgery and they say it is very painfull but how am i going to stop taking the pills after being on them for 6 weeks?i really wanted to see that 500 days but it aint going to happen.will i be able to just stop?last time i went threw withdrawal i didnt eat or sleep for 14 days but that was after 3 years of use.i was so sick .now i am going to be recovering from surgery and then have to stop.will my addicted mind say no keep taken them?i am so scared.

[butch798]

i was told the surgery i am getting is the most painfull .sorry to hear you is just as bad.when i used to get things done they used to say this is gone hurt a little and it hurt a lot .i never heard them say its gone hurt a lot but this time they say its going to hurt a lot.but my choices are stay in denial or take the pain and chances or just wait till i cant walk anymore and cant take care of myself.my family doesnt deserve that .the doc that doing me is a specialist in scoliosis and cervical maybe when i get better you mom could get an evaluation from him.i have been doing yoga and mediatation for over a year and it made all the difference.if you want go on line and look up fragrant heart .com.it is free and she has many mediatations .give it a try.if i dont speak to again before your surgery good luck and may god be with .art.ps we will go threw withdrawal together it will be easy this time our pains will be gone.i know they will

[dominosarah]

Wishing you all the best butch~

Update us when you can~

[lulu747]

Hey Butch-

Yes they discussed my pain management with me.  The reason I've kept my dose so low (40 mg hydro- they prescribed double that) is so that I can have proper pain control after surgery.  The last time I had surgery in 2010 I was on 150 mcg Fentanyl every 48 hrs PLUS 40-60 mg of hydro for breakthrough pain.  Just typing those numbers makes me shudder!!!!
They kept me in the hospital for 6 days last time because it was so hard to control my pain.  This time it should be 3 days at most (depending on how extensive the damage is in there)
I'm not worried about pain control.  I don't rely 100% on the meds- I do other pain management like pelvic floor PT as well as deep breathing, meditation and heat/ice.  My disease is supposed to be one of the most painful things in the world.  It completely destroys lives, and has almost destroyed mine in the past.  I've learned a lot about managing it as I do not want to be on drugs any longer than I have to be.

That's crazy that your spine is dying!!  Of course you MUST do the surgery.  I worry that my Mom is being so stubborn.  She has severe osteoarthritis and scoliosis and her spine is literally disintegrating.  She's lost 3 inches of height in the past 5 years.  She is a tough lady but she keeps her doctors visits secret from me, and my feeling is she could probably benefit from surgery.  But I can't interfere in her life any more than she can interfere in mine.  Ahhh Mother/Daughter relationships (:

I really will be sending up some prayers for you, a successful surgery, and a speedy recovery.
Keep us posted (:
Bless-
Lu

[clean_in_ks]

Wishing you a safe, successful surgery, Butch.  
And may your recovery time just fly by for you~

[butch798]

you too are doing great you are almost there 19 days is great by day 30 you will feel free of the drugs .you then have to start the real life of never going back and enjoying the drug free life enjoying the family and realizing where you have been and just enjoy the little things in life .the trees the flowers what ever makes you feel good.i have a bigger battle but its the same battle.fighting whatever gets in your way of good health and happiness.thanks for helping me get to this day .These last 2 weeks have been hard but i am ready for the pain and ready to get better.

[Ejm7263]

Lifting you up in prayer. GOD bless you abundantly. You are a blessing to me.
Your going to do great.