Ready But Not Willing

[guayas]

Hi.  New here.  About to run out of the vicoprofens and seriously dreading it.  In two days i'll be out of them and back into the W/D's.  Uck!  Problem is, I don't want to keep going back to the clinic and getting them every month as I always run out before my next appointment.  Thus, i'm going thru the W/D's every month.  It gets worse and worse each time and I just feel like I want it all to end each and every time.  I hate being caught in this viscious circle/cycle every month.  Been doing this on and off for about 5 years now.  Even stopped at times for up to six months, but always go back to the clinic for back pain.  Any advice on making the W/D's easier and stopping permanently?  Thanks.

[stilltrying1965]

thats good to hear you can do this and you will get lots of support me & my wife have just kicked a 13 year heroin addiction cold turkey and have been clean for 23 days the first 2 weeks were not a nice feeling at all so im happy you have made your mind up to do this as it can be done 23 days does not sound a lot but its been the best 23 days of my last 13 years you start to rember how good life without drugs is indian tonic water helped us with rls id swear by itso be strong stay focused and willpower and you can do it the very best of luck to you stay strong my friend  james

[opiateswon]

Congrats on No alcohol!! My husband is taking Tylenol Pm that has benedril in it to help with the sneezing and such. the first few days we took sleep aides religiously but I'm on day 7 and haven't had to use anything in a few days. My body is almost back to normal but I'm sluggish. I'm using the vitamins in the Thomas recipe and I know I would be SOO much worse off if I wasn't. Stick to your guns and know you are not alone.

[gizzy32]

We were typing at the same time and I just read what you wrote. Like you said telling your dr would put an end to this and it's very scary, but I think something you need to do. There is nothing wrong with asking for help, that is a sign your ready to do this. Keep posting and keep reading and you will learn a lot. Oh and congrats on 16 years without a drink, you can quit these damn pills too:)

[gizzy32]

If you look in the top right of this page you will see the thomas recipe which can make w/d's a bit more bearable. There are other alternatives for pain than just opiates, so look into it and get off this viscious cycle. Since you are running out, that is a sign of abuse so i suggest some type of aftercare. It really helps talking to others that understand and give you support when needed. I say flush the rest and get started, lol. Good luck

[guayas]

Yeah, I like the nyquil/Dayquil thing to help me sleep and with the symptoms.  But I think that has alcohol in it?  I'm 16 years without a drink so I don't want to go that direction.  I guess i'm always addicted to something in my life.  Vikes being just another symptom of this illness of mine.  Anymore adive on how to get some sleep and also, does anyone here experience extreme inner coldness; can't get warm when going thru the W/D's?   It's easily the worst part for me so I spend a lot of time in the warm bath.  It's unbearable at times.  Kicking in the witer is tough for me.  Thanks.

[guayas]

Yes, I have a strong desire to quit altogether.  It definately helps top be able to talk to others whom are in the same boat as me.  I donb't know why, but it helps to do that.  I have one more day (tomorrow) until I run out of the vikes.  I always get into a "fear" mode knowing that I have to go thru the physical part of it, when in fact, it's the mental part of it that is the hardest; the staying OFF of them.  I'm afraid to tell my doc because I know that will be the end of them for me.  See how sick I am??!!  I know, we're all more of less like that, addicts, but I have to quit living like this.  It's taken five years of my life and I don't want to lose any more time on these "Soul Suckers.  Thanks for your help.

[liscamdave]

You do have to want to be done with the pills. You came to the right place. We can try to help and steer you in the right direction. Do you want to stop altogether?

[opiateswon]

This is the first time since I started opiates 6 years ago that I've gone without for 7 days. My husband and I have been using Dayquil during the day, Nyquil at night and the vitamins from the Thomas recipe. Imodium works to stop the stomach cramps and nausea/ vomitting but I haven't had to use it in a few days and things are getting better. The one thing I know that is keeping me strong is having my family support my decision. The desire to excape from pain is very real, so your desire to live free of Vicodins has to be stronger. I think if I were in your situation, I would tell my dr that I don't want opiates/narcotics for the pain, as I had to do myself. I would find a support group or person to discuss your thoughts, WD's, and cravings with that will not let you relapse. This site really offers a great support for me even when I'm too weak to type or ask questions. Can you think of anyone that can "be there" to support you through this? Strong frame of mind and the desire to be "normal" have been key to my survival of the WD's.