36 hours no coke

[coconuts27]

As some of you know, I have been using cocaine pretty heavily for 3 months, about a gram a day. Well, 3 days ago, I lost my kids because of my addiction. I've finally come to accept the fact that I can't be a good mom and use cocaine too. I been trying to quit for months, but this was the push that I needed. So I been serious about quitting for about 3 days, but I was weak. I'd make it thru most of the day, then buy some at nite. Yesterday would've been day one clean, but I had coke laying around that I couldnt resist when I got out of bed. Nothing after that. Today has been much better. No cocaine, took a shower, and I got out for some air and sun. Hopefully that helps. The cravings are there, but my ex bf has all my money. I will beat this. I also have a problem with pain pills, but I think I need to conquer one habit at a time. I'm thinking after 7 days coke free, I'll go c/t off the pain pills. I have found so much support in this community, so I'm going to keep posting everyday. Thank you all for your support, and just like you been here for me, I'm here for you.

[confused456]

So glad you have a therapist to help you! With that and all your friends here and YOUR DETERMINATION, you ARE going to beat this!!!

[coconuts27]

Thanks guys for all your encouragement. I know I can do this. I am fianlly coming clean about how bad it was because I'm ready for a change. I hid my habit from all my friends and family. The people who knew I was using, didnt know how much, but now they do. I know that I have to face these realities in order to beat this. I know that the battle wont be over in 7 days, but I hope that by then I'll be ready to deal with the next problem. I plan to work with a therapist to try to keep my cravings and depression under control. This is a door that I wish I never wouldve opened, and one that I plan to keep closed. I will keep posting because I know it helps. Thanks again.

[confused456]

You can do this! I know how bad you want to get and stay clean for you and your kids!! You are going to beat this!! Keep hanging in there and post often!!

[newmanagment]

hey , ya prolly know im a 25 year addict myself!! i relapsed thursday after cashin a 5000 check.... but since i knew i wuz gonna stick my head strait up my a$$ is put all but 200 bux where i couldnt get to it.  coke is an evil drug, it will sneak up on ya, suker punch ya and take ya outta your nice lil world to somewhere im tired of bein. so congrads on the 36 hours, ya deserve a pat on the back, cuz i know wutcha fightin right now. i would like to tell ya that after 7 dayz ya will have won the fight, but coke isnt like that! it is a mentall addiction that last for the rest of our lives, and we have to take every step to fight against it. i am seein an addiction counselor , but i need to get back to my daily NA , and this website every day for a minute. my wife may not like me being here, but i know that this site is a major insprition to me.. so arm yourself for the fight of your life, and keep ya chin up , you CAN do this!! many prayers and much love from one coke addict to another........

[LIZZIE LOU]

as the mother of a recovering crack addict (over 2 years)...i want to say WOOHOOOOO!  you can do this...you have to do this.  your kids need and want their mother...and they need you to be clean and sober so that they have the best chance in life.  stay focused...keep looking forward!!!!!  baby steps...one day at a time :)