I don't know that anyone can diagnose your symptoms or condition, if there is one, over a keyboard. Your best bet is to visit your doctor, get honest and express your concerns.
I wish you the best and hope it all works out.
Not really looking for a diagnoses as im pretty sure i know what it is. Mainly just people who have had similar experiences and how they have dealt with life after.
would really appreciate some responses kinda need some advice from people in the same boat.
Did you get the responses you needed?