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2036485 tn?1329777078

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I am a 27 year old female mother of two. I have been struggling with hydrocodone addiction for about 16 months. I had 8 teeth cut out which took over 3 months to heal. I couldnt stop taking them. I hate myself right now and have for about a year when I realized I was addicted. This can happen to anyone no one is invincable of this. I have never touched any other drug in my life and watched my bro and dad both basically kill themselves on anything they could get their hands on I never thought I would follow in their footsteps Ive always been scared of drugs and even medication for that matter. I was on antideppressants from age 14 til I got pregnant with my youngest son 3 years ago. I feel I have let hydrocodont take the place of a medication I actually need. I take 6 ten mg hydrocodone a day I have gotten off of them for 4 days about 6 months ago but the anxiety was too bad I couldnt handle it and had no one to turn to because I have kept this a secret from everyone. I dont even no who I am anymore. This drug has literally taken over my life. I need help I want off of them bad just dont no where to turn or where to begin. Alot of people will look at this and say thats not that many I know plenty of people who have taken way more at a time then I do in a day but this is a problem to me and I just need some advice. Please someone tell me what to do??? Please.  My kids are my life and this is not the mommy I want to be. Thanks for reading and in advance any help or encouragement.
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Avatar universal
I feel your pain since i got in to this S**t because of my dental work too. Just hang in there and talk to a Doctor and then stop taking it period. But one advice I can give you is do not go on Suboxone. Do talk to a Doctor. It is very important.
2036485 tn?1329777078
The problem with that is I dont have a doctor anymore trying to find a new one. and ive heard of suboxone and actually thought about trying to get on it but now that ive read your post i definently wont be trying that. I dont wanna trade one addiction for another. dental pain is the worst pain ever and i still have some teeth that bother me i would rather be in labor lol. I just cant believe i let things get this far.
1895503 tn?1332373374

This is a great place to see how others are handling their problem (many similar to yours), and to get motivation to move through this.  As you continue to read and post here, I have no doubt you will learn the best way to get through this!  Do you have the ability to taper?  Some people can have the needed self-control.  Others don't.  We can't give taper schedules here, but we can support each other!  You aren't alone.  I am tapering on Opana ER, a very strong opiate.  So, I am in the thick of it all with you!!!  We can do this together.  One day at a time.  I am also very committed to AA.  It means the world to me.
2036485 tn?1329777078
I have tapered once before and was clean for only 4 days I think if I wouldnt have tapered so fast I wouldve been able to handle it easier. Im gonna try and stat tomorrow. thanks for the support and good luck to you as well.
1767882 tn?1331409169
Hi...I'm on day 34. I was taking hydro and oxy, around 50 to 60 mgs per day.
For anxiety, I highly recommend Kava tea. I use 2 bags and let it steep for 10 minutes (as per Gnarly's instructions :). It really works for me for anxiety. I was getting panic attacks fairly often for the first 5 or 6 days. Things have really mellowed this past week. I've felt good most of the time. I stiil do the Kava when I feel anxious. Good luck.
1895503 tn?1332373374
I am working on my taper too!  My family is on a skiing vacation.  I am here with them, but don't like to ski.  My goal is to get on the pills that I think will be a little easier to detox from! I hope I can do that while I am here.  My hope is then to decrease those pills.  I hope I can keep it clear in my mind.  
We wil get through this.

Marie
2036485 tn?1329777078
I have tried switching to another med that would be easier to get off of but the side effects were horrible so i couldnt take it. I really think i need something for anxiety which i have struggled with my whole life and it might be a lil easier on me im hoping to go see a doctor monday so i can get something i actually need.
2036485 tn?1329777078
where can i find kava tea? i will try anything
1767882 tn?1331409169
I got it at the natural pantry. Health food store. Organic food store.
2036485 tn?1329777078
ok thanks definently gonna try this!
Avatar universal
I am brand new here.  First night.  I totally get where you are coming from.
I've been reading alot of posts and someone said not to worry about everything (which I am) and just take it one day or one hour at a time.
I hope you can find some peace in those words.
You are already miles ahead of me becuase you really WANT to quit.
I keep thinking I can go on like this....not sure I'm ready.
And that is far behind you.
Avatar universal
Your story sounds very similar to mine. I to was replacing anti depressants with norcos. I think that you should probably see your dr and get on some anti depressants. I take Prozac which is good for anxiety also but my dr also gives me Ativan which really helps with my anxiety. The Prozac takes about 4 weeks to start working so I made sure that I had been on it long enough before I started my first detox and I believe that it helped there were times in the past that I tried to quit without them and it was ten times worse at least the mental part of the detox. This happens to all sorts of people it doesn't make you a bad person or a bad mom. I too have 3 children and I feel like they would be so much better if I were clean. I plan to quit on tuesday.  Pm me if you would like to talk I'm in here all the time
Avatar universal
I feel your pain.  I was up to taking 12-16 10/325 a day until i had to go on a trip out of the country and knew i wasnt going to be able to get some.  I didnt realize i had such a big problem until i went through this and did research.  What i did was use kratom to settle the wd (this will defiitely help you with anxiety) effects, and then tapered off that. U can get this online or in a gaspipe store.  I can give u more info if u like, just msg me
2039321 tn?1329781482
every this my first hour or so on this site im 21 male and i got hurt in footbal in highschool and im dislexis so if my spelling is of im sorry. i was taking 25 norco 10/325 and i want to stop cuz it puting a hugh wage in my family. my knee does hurt so i take lyric 100mg and it helps so i just stoped the norco i fluched them and it was so hard i was doc shoping and it was geting up to me so ya i know what your going though.. good luck
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