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This absolutely stinks, I set my goals to 3 mg of suboxone yesterday and .25 xanax in the morning and was ok on the sub taper but instead of going down on Xanax I had 3 of the .25 and today went back to 4 mg of subs and 2 Xanax, don't know what Is wrong with me, I get all ready to go and start off real good and then mess it all up. I am so mad at myself, I have been laying on the couch all day and haven't done anything! Just venting, guess I'll try again tomorrow. I feel so ready when I read on here that people have been clean for days, months and I think I can do this too but just keep failing. :-(
I am tapering off Xanax, too. It is way too hard to do it alone! You need a doctor and a support system. Also, join ************.org! You will find an amazing amount of information and support there just regarding Xanax! There is a thread just for those of us tapering off of Xanax as well. It is amazingly supportive. Please join!!!
Thanks for your kind words, I started on .25 then .25 twice a day, and this week I've done .25 three times a day twice and I know you have to taper, but looks like I'm going the other way!!!
the most frustrating this was wanting to just go off the xanax and then realizing I couldn't, I had to taper down and I wasn't even on a high dose. I was sooooooo mad but here I am one week off them tonight after weaning down the last month and I AM starting to feel better today.
Just be patient, don't beat yourself up too much sweetie. Try to get in some therapy to give you some tools to move ahead!
Just be patient, don't beat yourself up too much sweetie. Try to get in some therapy to give you some tools to move ahead!
No the pain management doctor doesn't know I'm tapering or about the Xanax, but you're right thats just for meds, so I'm going to start looking into therapy this week. I really can't do this on my own, I've tried, but started the Xanax when I started tapering the subs, and anti depressants now too. I just want off everything, but I guess we all do, just having a hard time today. Thanks for listening to me and giving me advice.
Elmi - sounds like some after care is in order here. Most people find as long as they still have access to the pills they take them, you gotta cut off your supply. I can tell you with me I was in contstant withdrawal with the xanax because they have such a short half life, I was on 1 mg at night but I'd feel so awful every day at that low dose. You might be really making things harder on yourself staying on the xani's - I would start weaning down as it will take some time and just get off those - they are not worth it. I really do think that is contributing to your issues.
Don't beat youself up - everyone is different - this is all gonna click one of these times for you. Consider that you are in constant, long term withdrawals due to the xanax and get a plan to phase them out.
Hang in there girl!
Don't beat youself up - everyone is different - this is all gonna click one of these times for you. Consider that you are in constant, long term withdrawals due to the xanax and get a plan to phase them out.
Hang in there girl!
You can do this - you just need a good support system in place and some form of aftercare. Until you start to understand why you're abusing them in the first place, nothing will change.
Have you considered NA or AA? Or a therapist? Addictionologist? The pain management clinic is only going to be there to give you meds. Are they helping at all with this taper? Do they know even know about what you're trying to do?
It's great that you want to quit. So put a realistic plan in place. Tell your husband under NO circumstances is he to give you more than you're supposed to be taking for this taper. He has to be ready to say NO to you if you push him for more. And I'm sure he loves you and wants to see you get well so give him that chance to help you.
I tried many times to quit but until I realized I couldn't do it on my own, that I had to become accountable to someone else other than myself (since at that time I could no longer trust myself), I continued to make the same mistakes. So that meant I had to be completely honest with my Dr.'s and tell them I had a problem. Although they knew that already, but I had to be the one to reach out and ask for help.
Have you considered NA or AA? Or a therapist? Addictionologist? The pain management clinic is only going to be there to give you meds. Are they helping at all with this taper? Do they know even know about what you're trying to do?
It's great that you want to quit. So put a realistic plan in place. Tell your husband under NO circumstances is he to give you more than you're supposed to be taking for this taper. He has to be ready to say NO to you if you push him for more. And I'm sure he loves you and wants to see you get well so give him that chance to help you.
I tried many times to quit but until I realized I couldn't do it on my own, that I had to become accountable to someone else other than myself (since at that time I could no longer trust myself), I continued to make the same mistakes. So that meant I had to be completely honest with my Dr.'s and tell them I had a problem. Although they knew that already, but I had to be the one to reach out and ask for help.
No aftercare just see pain management doctor. Yes, my husband can hold my meds, maybe that's a solution but he's way easy to convince if I wanted another one so it's really up to me. He even started walking this week, which ive been promising to start since January and nothing, i go to work but besides that I don't want to do anything but lay around, I need to get my hair done and my nails filled and it's been 4 weekends now that I say I'm going to do it and here I sit....wasting my life away.
Because this has very little to do with willpower. If it did we'd all be clean.
Are you getting other kinds of support during this taper? And do you have someone can hold the meds and only give you what you should be taking? It's almost impossible for most of us to do this on our own - it's way to easy to go back up on your dosage.
Are you getting other kinds of support during this taper? And do you have someone can hold the meds and only give you what you should be taking? It's almost impossible for most of us to do this on our own - it's way to easy to go back up on your dosage.
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