Am i going to go through withdrawals again?

[quinner]

If everything happens for a reason, I'm searching hard for the reason this detox off oxys has been so hard for me.  So many obstacles have been thrown into my way.  The initial detox was hard in itself, but then I got the gout in my foot and had to limp or crawl around everywhere, as well as dealing with the excruciating pain.  Then, waiting for my foot to get better was out of the question because it  just got worse.  The gout spread to my other foot and then i became bedridden.  I couldn't walk and had to crawl only to go the bathroom and that was dreadful. My ankles swelled up doubling in size, the excruciating pain doubled as well. I stayed the course though, using Tylenol and Ibuprofen only. I had a doctor come out for a house call last thursday and he immediately instructed me to go to the hospital.  I was admitted immediately and spent three nights there and I am really saddened to say that they offered me a morphine drip and i accepted.  I was at the end of my witts, i didn't do it because i was craving it, i did it because i couldn't take the pain anymore.  They pumped me up with heavy anti-inflammatory meds, cared for me like my family couldn't at home and here i am back at home in much better condition and improving.  I was told that I may have been mis-diagnosed and what I thought was gout may actually be Rheumatoid Arthritis and now I have to see a specialist, this opens up a whole new can of worms and many questions with it.  

I was heading into week three off of oxys when this all happened.  My last dose of morphine was Sunday evening.  I'm not craving anything because I'm not going back to the hell I called life while I was using.  I'm not feeling any WD's and I am taking strong NSAIDS for the lingering pain in my feet.  Is two and half days of morphine alot (properly dosed)? Am I outta of the woods with WD? What am I going to do if I have Rheum-Arthritis and this happens again?

This has been one hell of a ride for me and I dont want to do it again, I am staying the course, I'm trying to look forward and I'm trying to take the positives out of this situation and mind you there doesn't seem to be many. I should be enjoying sobriety. I should be walking around now, excersing, playing with my kids, working etc.  Instead I'm bedridden and really upset.  Thanks in advance.

[quitinoxys]

Hey man don't be hard on yourself, as being a chronic pain sufferer I know how you feel. I doubt if you will have w/d from the morphine as it has a much shorter half life than oxys and you would be in w/d by now. I hope you feel better and they can diagnose & treat properly.

As far as the Toradol I have taken it before and it has to administered via a needle, but my doctor told me it shouldn't be used for long term pain as it causes kidney problems after prolonged use.

[Toby1863]

I used to take morphine when I ran out of oxy's They never got me high but they did cool the WD's. That is NOT an endorsement to use morphine for CT WD's.

After only 2 1/2 days of a morphine drip I seriously doubt if you'll have any WD's. You'd feel it already if you were. Good luck and it's good to hear you're still on track.

T

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude dont beat yourself up over this even addicts will need pain management from time to time 2 days in the hospital will not set you back into withdrawals it sounded like you really needed it no harm no foul there is some good nonnarcotic pain meds out there various antiinflammatorys ...toradol always worked good for my back give some of the nonnarcotic
stuff a chance...work on getting a proper diagnosis so you know what your up agents
hang in there when the meds work you will be able to walk again good luck and God bless......Gnarly      

[duluthguy]

Hello my friend!! I just got back from my long Thanksgiving week, it was nice- and good to be back! I am sorry about the pain issues you are having- I know I couldn't keep clean if I was constantly in excruciating pain! There are alternatives for long term pain management other than opiates, but don't beat yourself up over a morphine drip when you were in that kind of pain- Today is my 2 week point, not one opiate has entered this mouth as of yet, and I pray it will always be so! Thanks for the update, I sure am pulling for you!!

[justneedtotalk]

Do not beat yourself up about this!  Some times there are un-avoidable situations that cannot be helped.  Your biggest hurdle is going to be correctly diagnosing your condition.  If it ends up being Rheumatoid Arthritis it changes things.  I have a friend that has a severe case of RA and he cannot function without his patches and pills.  This does not mean though that you have to follow the same protocol.  There are a lot of prescription (non-narcotic) pain relievers out there that can help.

Remember why you wanted to quit in the first place.  A life on opiate based pain pills in no life at all.  We all know that our tolerances increase with time and our withdrawals do the same.  I think if it truly ends up being gout then you will be able to go home and recover without the use of narco's.  It is a tough decision because the pain pills do help with pain and unfortunately for us attics we are addicted to them and there is never enough!  I wish you the best with the RA if that ends up being your prognosis but RA is still fairly rare and most can be treated through medication (not narco's).  Stay strong and do not allow the quilt to lead you back to the pills full time.....Just try and concentrate on getting through this short term situation and keep the faith....God Bless!