also look on the health page thomas recipe will help so much with the withdrawl
Sounds like you addictions have a really strong hold on you! I am so glad you are reaching out now before something horrible happens, this site is wonderful for gaining support and advice. I am not a good person to talk to about your wds, went only 1 day without, but there are lots of people on here who will help you.
If you are really scared is there a crisis line you could call? A detox centre or something like that? I know when I was in wd I couldnt stay still one moment, legs shaking non stop. That plus a ton of other horrible symptoms.
Perhaps the late hour isnt good for others to reply to you but read through some of the other posts and you might find some answers or comfort.
Good luck