GRUMPY DAY 13

[Pat1956100]

Started my day feeling sad and craving.  Now I feel grumpy and craving.  I am doing laundry, went for a walk, trying to keep busy but I catch my mind wandering to pills.
The good news is I finally got a telemarketer call.  Only it was a recording telling me I had won a free cruise.  Did you know if you yell at the recordings really loud, it stops it?  
Oh and when I was on my walk this lady was walking 2 dogs and let them poop and didn't pick it up.  
Yelling is good for the soul.

[ribs2k]

You got it Pat. Please tell me how day 14 is going. I hope all is well, and I think of you often too, and have nothing but the best hopes for you. And the ultimate confidence you can do whatever you put your mind to!
RandyB

[Pat1956100]

Randy it is so good to hear from you.  I think of you often. We started this long journey together and it's really great that we are both doing well.
While I am not climbing any mountains yet I have come a long way baby.
So happy for you and don't be a stranger around this forum. We love to hear good news.
Hugs
Pat

[Pat1956100]

Thanks so much gnarly and I am honored that you are following my story.  I know that I am getting strength from somewhere other than myself and I truly believe all your prayers have been helping me.
My grumpy day turned into a very good one.  I accomplished things around the house and then ended up going to a community barbecue where we were waiting to hear if we had won $25,000 towards a new track for our highschool.  It was announced live on The Sports Network. WE WON and I screamed and laughed and the feeling I had was amazing.  I was jumping up and down like my son had just hit a grand slam in the bottom of the 9th to win the big game.  It's been so long since I have felt that natural high and it really felt good.  
So crazy that I almost didn't go but I have really been forcing myself to do things this time and it's paying off.  Sorry to ramble but I just had to share the good feelings after posting all my struggles.  

[ribs2k]

Pat,
Keep up that sense of humor. It will get you through. I am still on the Suboxone, and have been clean of oxy and tramadol. I have made the mistake of drinking a few times, But I am done with that. I have some energy and feel fairly normal and continue to have a slow taper. So things are looking up. Out bike riding, hiking and even got back to a few routes climbing. I am still recovering from the cancer and addiction but I definately feel like I am improving all of the time. Stay strong my friend.
Love,Randy

[gnarly_1]

HEY Pat been following your story your doing great we all have days like this it will pass and as you gain clean time you will find you will get more and more good days so hang in there we all do this just for today............Gnarly

[Sonrissa]

Well, if you won't, then I won't either! I'm still thinking about that Walmart job! I just want a microphone! Oh the stuff I could "announce" LOL!

[Free2agoodhome]

You make the rockin world go round

[akitagurl12]

LOL!!!!!  

[Pat1956100]

I will not join a freaking gym
I will not go for a damn swim
I will not take a zumba class
and I don't care if I have a fat ***

[conhall]

I sent you the rain to cool it off Yikes Hoopefully you dont lose internet!
I know I cant lose my internet either I watch My netflix on it and right now its me this recliner chair and my laptop and My netflix and My Diet coke and man do i look special. LOL

[Sonrissa]

OK! That was much better!!

Free: Girlies?? You mean like pinup Girlies??

BTW, I'm typing this Under my bed with my 6 cats (yes 6, damnit!". Big thunderstorm happening and I'm scared!  TV just went out! Dear God, don't let me lose my Internet connection too!! AGH!!

[akitagurl12]

LOL!! Very true.

[conhall]

when I was buying Thomas recipe stuff Immodium gatoraide water more immdoium, Hylands leg cramps, Advil, Sleep aid melatonin, Vitamins Energy drinks and lets not for get TOILER PAPER and two cartons of cigarettes hahaha I thought the cashier knew ! she just kinda smiles at me. She said would you like to try our featured item nestle crunch candybars I said heck yes I will take 10! LOL

[Free2agoodhome]

Go shopping........you girlies seem to find that somehow therapuetic,,, ;-)

[Sonrissa]

Is that the best you got Conhall?? You can do better than that! LOL hope you are feeling better!

[conhall]

omg sonrissa That made me laugh secret detoxer meeting by the Immdium  LOL! Dont forget about the gatoraid Isle  LOL

[conhall]

Maybe you could join a gym Pat get out and get some exercise talk with peeps Take some water aerobics classes and ride the treadmills take a zumba class It will get your blood going  and help with endorphins.
keeping busy will days better and start new habits healthy ones :)
I joined gym and I hated going but I started to actually look forward to it. I cant go now because of my arm but asap I will be going back. I met a few new people and it was Fun.

[Free2agoodhome]

I'm having a bad day too, but that's ok..........

I used to have bad years.    lol


keep going Pat....(im serious)


Free~

[Pat1956100]

My humour has gotten me thru so much too Kyle.  I could tell you stories lol.  My whole family has a great sense of humour so you had to have it to survive growing up in our house.  Laughter is the best medicine.  I swear I feel so much better after reading the comments on here.

[kyle505]

Actually, humor got me through some of the most difficult hours of detox. I avoid it most times when I post because I don't want it to seem like I'm making light of detox, but it was a great help to me. When you can start laughing, especially at yourself, then you know youre on the way to recovery.

[Pat1956100]

Hey so was DOC.  You know the dwarf named Doc and it also stands for Drug of Choice.  Get it, Huh.  
I kill me.
Do you think I need attention?

[Sonrissa]

The best announcement? "Fashion Alert!  Lady wearing a MU-MU  looking for a lost cat, in the SlimFast Aisle!"

I'm cracking myself up, Dopey! That was a good one!

[Pat1956100]

That's awesome kaydee.  You are doing so well and have a great attitude.
Days are starting to fly now.

[kaydee41]

11 days for me Pat!