Today is day two and no pills! I don't feel bad but I don't feel great. I was away this weekend so I took lots of vitamins, potassium and protein shakes. I walked a lot and kept busy. Last night I fell asleep instantly but woke up at 4am in a pool of sweat, it was gross but I managed to fall back asleep till 8. The depression has set in for sure:(
I slept during my taper but the moment I jumped off the sleep stopped. I've not slept for 9 days. Maybe 30 minutes a night max. The funny thing is that during the day I'm not tired. To much anxiety or running on adrenalin. return the calm stuff. Nothing is going to help you sleep. My perscribed sleeping pills don't even work.
I have 11 halves left, I only took a half today. I keep falling asleep lol I'm so tired yet slept from 10p to 5a which is normal for me.
To be honest I wish I didn't order the calm support, I may send it right back cause I honestly don't think I need it. Took a multi vitamin today and potassium and I feel fine. The hot/cold is gone I'm just beyond tired and cannot wait to sleep in tomorrow!
uggh... I hate Calm-Support doesn't work! I tried it with a few of my roommates that were quitting at same time. It didn't help any symptoms and just better off witha multivitamin. The thing that makes me mad about them is i fell for those amazon reviews, have a bad feelinga bout those reviews now after our experience. I really hope your experience is different just a warning.
Go for the three today If you can, than you will have three left. You can do two the next day and than one on Sunday. May as well taper out as much as you can. You were taking about the same is I but I jumped off at 20 mg. I was ok the first couple of days, just RLS and no sleep. I got hit hard on day 5 and day 6. I'm on day 9 now and I'm fine other than a low grade fever.
And you will! You will have a wonderful holiday season and be blessed in the new year for the work you are doing now. It goes extremely fast after the first 2 weeks. I would also venture to say that you will be very thankful this Thanksgiving, and that by Halloween you will have fun. Keep your eyes on the prize and adopt a warrior mentality. Good costume eh?
Msdelight it feels like it was forever:( I thank god everyday that I didn't abuse these pills as badly as I know I could have... January is coming soon and I want to start the year off better then I did last January...
I think your daughter is correct. You used a low dose short term, so the detox won't be that bad. The symptoms usually peak at day 3 clean and by day 5 or 6 will subside. I don't think yours will be too bad, although everyone is an individual ..
5:30am I slept all night, no leg issues yet but I did wake up hot/cold... i will have plenty of water with me and I'm stopping for Imodium today. Question.... I broke all my 5/325 in half, yesterday I did 4 halves so that's 10 right? Today I thought I'd try 3 halves, is it too soon? I had 7 pills left, I have 6 today! Again this is huge for me HUGE! I read somewhere that tapering is to taper not get high and that's stuck in brain, I'd rather taper then get extremely sick. My daughter keeps telling me I won't get sick as others cause even at my highest I wasn't taking that much... Just looking for some encouragement I guess
Have fun hiking...i love it too but it has been hard with the fatigue I had and sometimes still have...just bring a lot of water....
Wow look at that! Great job! Just wanted to remind you to bring some immodium on the trip, and lots of water. Have fun!
One more thing... It's 8:15 and this girl only took 10 mg today! Might not seem like a lot for some but for this girl it's HUGE!!!! Besides the yuk stomach and the hot/cold thing going on I'm ok:) I got this!
I blame myself, I've never took a thing in 45 years and let me tell you I never will again cause it's not worth this! Hitting the outdoors this weekend providing tropical storm joanquin doesn't rain on my parade
You are going to be Fine!
Just know we have Receptors all over in our Brain and some Body parts. The receptors get blocked up and this is why a tolernce builds up too. So we need more & more in that way, besides being a Addict getting out of control. Anyway, as these receptors clean up you will have some Bathroom issues going on. I do not think you should have to much Mental, because you were not on them long enough to whack out your Brain Chemistry. Maybe you might be a bit emotional because your true emotions will be back..WHATEVER!! I just wish you the best and we are here.
PS. I do not blame the Dr at all now. That was just when I had c/t from 3 meds & one was methadone. I did not get the right help I needed either and this caused me to have a long, hard, serious detox! Sure they wanted me on Subs. Ha! They do have more knowledge and what meds they can give during detox.
Bless
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Vic! God love you and your recovery!!!!! You have been through hell and back and live to tell!
It's 1:30, I only had one at 6am and a half at noon, besides my stomach doing some crazy *** stuff I'm ok so far, I'm going to take another half later and that will be all today. I'm very proud of myself!
One thing I must say about MY doctor is even if I took 1 pill 4x a day like he told me ( don't forget this man started me on 7.5/325 in January and I asked to be taken down to a lower dose ) I would STILL BE addicted to Vicodin, yep it was me who took more but it wouldn't have mattered either way 10 months later I would still be a addict.
You will be okay sweetheart. My fiancé is a nurse practitioner and does obviously prescribe pain medication but tries to warn every patient. He also tapers them off. Not all doctors are bad! But honestly I'm so sorry this happened to you. I'm looking at changing docs cuz mine still tries to get me to take tramadol yet I'm addicted. It's not good. I am praying for you. I know you are angry but that's totally ok Hun. We go through many emotions and that is one of them. Hang on tight girlfriend! You've got this!
I dont think we can blame the doctor at all as it says "take as needed" but we took them for other reasons other than pain. The doctors think we are responsible but we proved otherwise. It is suffering and sorrow that we created and have to accept.
Just realize in about 3 to 4 days after your last pill your body and spirit will feel much better. Other than the runny nose, body aches and lack of energy, its the fear of "what now" that is most intense. But that to will pass. Its truly a terrible drug but we didnot know this in the begininng.
Hi again mom.
You do sound like you have a plan. WE have all been down this road & still going. I got to the point where I was snorting my Methadone with a med I brought from the streets and then took another to sleep at night.
It just shows how fast things can change in our Brain/Body and then we want more & more & more and go about doing anything to get what we need. These thing kick in the Survival part of the brain and that is all we think of and nothing else. SO I am SO happy YOU did not get really bad. This is why it is a progressive disease. It could of got real nasty.
I know how you feel about the Drs. I had a friend being prescribed these, and it took some jealous girl to call and tell the Dr she was selling them. They did not even want to see her again. She could not even prove her side. That is how it is out here these days. The FDA is on their ash Bad! It is getting harder & harder for some to get these types of meds.
Well, you just stick around here and we will hold your hand all the way..Ok?
Oh, I was so mad when I first got clean over 3yrs ago that I was going to have a book written and call it "The Drug Pushers in the White Jackets"..However, now I know it is not all there fault. They are getting more and more info on Addiction these days too!
Take care of YOU!
Bless
Thank you cause I'll need you:) my stomach is a hot mess! Just ate some soup and right threw me it went:(
Welcome to the freak show lol. That's exactly what we all did. I kept eating the candy without concern for tomorrow. Then10 left and the panic started! That's when you start to realize your nuts and the pills are controlling you. My supply got cut off and so like you I used what was left to do a quick (very) taper and then off to the races. Ill be here when the starter says go and run next to you!
It's weird for me.... When I had 40-60 pills in a bottle I took them like they were candy, then when I was running out I would take less, I'm a freak! In my demented mind I was like " oh I have tons lets get a good buzz today" then I'd go into panic mode after that cause I would have maybe 10 so I'd take them veryyyyyyyyyy slowwwwwww. Told you I'm a freak!
Its fine. You're not a sissy lol. You're on the road to recovery no matter what you take or flush. If it was me id blow through those eight little pills in a flash cause I'm weak and addicted. I'm glad you have a good plan now. Keep moving forward. There are many roads that lead to freedom and you're doing great.