9 days....

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Almost all symptoms gone except for occasional brain fog (get this wah wah wah feeling in my head sometimes) and afternoon malaise. Other than that I feel pretty normal. although after years of abusing not sure what normal is. But if this is it....or it gets better.....I can deal with it. Walking a mile a day on treadmill (10 below out this a.m. so I certainly ain't walking outside)....

Could have got my script today....had to go to the RX to refill my clonazepam. Told them I didn't want the oxy and to tell the clinic I wouldn't be needing any more.


Going to a meeting again wednesday. Yes stuff is getting better... Thanks for all the support on here..God bless all.

Jimi

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Good to see you Gnarly......got it covered. went to a meeting wed nite. will be going again tomorrow nite.


asaalam alakumi

[waterLilly7]

good for you! and hey, that anxiety is a symptom of withdraw, so don't think it will always be there.
Keep up the good work!
hugs,
Lily

[gnarly_1]

Hey Dude good to see you making it you can do this just remember it is all ''just for today'' and get your a s s to a N/A meeting...........Gnarly

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Thanks Sarah...but I got a long way to go.....I'll get there though :)

[dominosarah]

You have set yourself up for success Jimi.  Embrace life now and run with it~

[VICourageous]

I to thought that picture was a relative of mine Ha! Great Power! good Job! Food for thought::: Positive Psychology Harnessing the Power of Happiness, Personal Strenth and Mindfulness.
Keep on Truckin forward and do not look back...
God Bless Us All
vvic

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Thanks again for all the support. This forum is tremendous and full of really righteous people. I feel I have won a great battle. But the real war has only started. and I'm not armed with much but my desire to not repeat the same mistakes have made over and over again. Maybe that will be enough this time.

Asaalam Alaikum

Peace be with you....

Jimi

[weaver71]

I love the profile picture Jimi, I thought someone found a picture of my dad. I relate to not knowing what normal is, not sure it exists. You're doing everything in your power and stepping out of your comfort zone. You're doing great, and I'm glad you're feeling better. Keep it up, you have this thing.

[luvabugga]

You're doing great Jimi!!  I know it's been tough for you...and I'm so proud!

[dominosarah]

Congrats Jimi!!  You are doing great so keep it going!

[clean_in_ks]

YEAH YOU JIMI........!!!!!!!
I heard that door slam all the way in Ks....haha!  The door you found the courage to close ALL the way....  "access".  Permanently closed w/o a crack..you did it... heard you sayin "no way Jose" and was so proud of you..... it's so liberating when we actually "act on that" and frees up SO much head space, ya know?  lol

You sound REALLY good.....so happy for you!  That anxiety and breathing stuff.....still happens to me.....but each time I overcome one situation....I gain the confidence and strength to attempt the next one.  I still have a few (being around one person in particular) that have really tested me.  I was around this person at 60 days clean.....tried again at 90....then again at my 7 mo/210 day mark.....I STILL am not able to "be" in that situation w/o that HUMONGOUS elephant sittin on my chest.....but that's ok.  It'll get better as "I" get better.  Just need to learn from each "try" and go atter again when I'm stronger.

I, too, noticed your picture change.....gotta say.....I like this one better:):)....can't wait to see what you change it to next!!
Hope you are enjoying kissin on your daughter and grandbaby~
Keep on keepin on~

[Clarityrocks]

Not picking up that script is amazing! I could barely look at a pharmacy for a long while. I still get triggered a little when I have to pick up something for my kids. I still haven't been to either of the two I used to go to.
I absolutely have social anxiety. I was always pretty outgoing, but once I started taking pills, I had to have them to socialize. Now, I am very nervous in groups, unless I know the people very well. I'm working on it!
You are doing a great job, so happy for you:)

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Thanks for the kind words everyone,,,,


Barb I think so much of it is attitude and lack of fear? In spite of my other prob I just went in with no fear and as positive an attitude as I could muster. For those out there suffering still after 2 weeks (I see this alot) they just need to know it gets better. It doesn't last forever. and once you start feeling better....it's like 100% better each day.

Like my new pic? Yeah that pic ain't too far off right now lol......

[BarbRTR]

Wow! You're simply doing amazing. I'm so very happy for you! And that was no small feat turning down the RX.
Thank you for sharing too. It gives hope to those whose symptoms are taking longer to get better, those just starting out, and those lurking and thinking about stopping.

Plus think about this, if you feel normal this soon, imagine how great it will be in 3 months, then 6. An even better normal! You have a lot to look forward to.

And I see you changed your pic too! Weird not seeing a skull lol.

[hope4good]

Good for you!! Not getting your script shows a lot of strength.  It sounds like you are doing everything you need to do to stay on the right path.  I know how the social anxiety is.  I don't think I left my house for a month after I got clean.  It was hard the first couple of times, but now I love leaving the house and seeing people.  I have had to learn how to live life again, and I love it. So happy for you!!

[YesLife4Me]

That is a great way to put it...social anxiety.   When we are using we isolate ourselves and then when we go through detox, we isolate ourselves more.  Once we start getting out there and living life, our anxiety starts to subside.  It takes some adjustments.  That's for sure.  I used to have to force myself to leave the house.   I would get stuck in the house and not want to leave, even though I didn't want to be there either.   It's almost like I was paralyzed.  

[JimiMiddleFinger63]

Thanks guys.....nope, no pills to be had. Got a live on my own power now. went to church yesterday and came out gasping for air. It's when I realized I hadn't been out in public...CLEAN.....in years. I have social anxiety lol. who'd a guessed? Dealing with stuff is hard......

[YesLife4Me]

That is EXCELLENT News!!!   I bet that was hard to release your safety net of the Oxy's.   But to know that there are no more pills to be had is so liberating.   You about to turn a corner....you are doing fantastic!!!     :)  

[PorVida]

Great job on 9 days and even better job on not picking that script up.  That is no small feat to pass it up.

Keep the clean days coming