i did bad

[helplessangel]

Tho weekend, I went to a bar and drank myself silly. No opiates but did have weed. I was so messed up, I found myself waking up with a guy in my bed. Obviously, you can guess what happened. Now I feel promiscuous. But, why oh why would a guy sleep with me while I was blasted out of my mind? Seems very malicious.

[dominosarah]

I too have that song in my head!!  Thanks Ready!!!

Good on you for going to another meeting!  Share with the group when you are comfortable.

[helplessangel]

I've got the Mary Poppins song stuck in my head!:)I feel better today. More positive. Went to a meeting last night and it was great. I'm going to another tonight. Haven't shared yet but I feel sharing with you all is great till I can get comfy enough at the meetings. Thanks a bunch to all of your support!

[lynn2ck]

Well, I drank a bit much this weekend too.  I just wanted something to take the edge off, and once it does then of course you know we want more.  Ugh!  

This is another day - and another weekend is on it's way.  We've learned from our last and let's leave it in the past.  

Hugs to you!

[Ready2befree]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8VHc49ZdP4

what the heck happened to our movies?? This stuff was really entertaining with real morals and goodness purity behind it!

[dominosarah]

If Mary Poppins sang about it it must be gospel!!!

[dominosarah]

And ev'ry task you undertake
Becomes a piece of cake~

[Ready2befree]

But the real question is... does a spoon full of sugar reALLY help the medicine go down? lmao its the most delightful thing!

[dominosarah]

Alcohol garbles our mind so when someone is a 2 at 10:00 they become a 10 at 2:00  I still shiver once in a while when i think about some of the choices i made under the influence.  It is very easy to switch up addictions at this point so please ramp up your aftercare.  You can find people at meetings or even volunteer at the local Humane Society if you like animals.  There is always a need for volunteers in alot of other places too.

[Ready2befree]

Rule #1 don't try to get into a relationship of any kind for the 1st year.  If you're feeling froggy use your hand lol
Seriously and substances? NONOOOOOO You're an addict you can barely eat chocolate without repercussions.  Let alone cigs/alcohol/sex you're just trading 1 in for the other.  Come on you know right from wrong., live it~~~!!!

[helplessangel]

Thanks blu for reminding me I'm not a floozy. Cause I sure felt that way. I seriously dont remember if it was protected and I'm not on birth control. I'm going to get the full panel for stds this week. I've genuinely learned my lesson. No more bars and no more men like him!

[BluCrystal]

Maybe he was mindlessly drunk as well.  Drunken sex is never a good idea.  Did he use a condom?  If you can't remember, you need to see a doctor to be tested for std's.  And if you are not on birth control, the possibility of pregnancy is there.  My best suggestion besides what i just said is to file this card in your 'NEVER DO' box, and let it go.  One drunken ONS does NOT  a floosie make. :)

[helplessangel]

You're right. I knew it was wrong the minute I stepped in that bar. But I rationalized it, of course. I will not do this again. I just feel so lonely. I've detoxed myself and didn't see anyone in 3 weeks. Now I'm wanting a little human time. Besides meetings, where can I go to meet people? I'm used to being around the wrong kinds.

[Krissy_123]

I'm sorry this happened to you,and I'm sure you already know well trying to get clean it's best to avoid all substances. It's very easy to fall back on something else to fill that void. Then bad sh¡t can happen like waking up with some dude. Yes it's malicious that someone can do something like that,so that's why it's best not to put yourself in that kind of situation.