Where are you in your recovery?

[gizzy32]

What stage are you at in your recovery and how do you feel? Although everyone is different and these time frames are not exact, I was hoping you would share where you think you are.

[Brrrrad]

I think I`m between stage 3 and four, You are all correct the "dain bramage" is minimal.
That old feeling still kicks in once in awhile.
Stay Strong  Brrrad  
Clean 1 yr. end of this month!

[bobby139]

Im at stage 3 still learning about myself and why i became a addict

[Avalancheblanche]

I am clean from drugs, but drinking a bit too much.  
I am paying now for what I did in the past and very fearful and regretting some bad decisions I made.  
I can only pray that God will look at me with kindness, or pitty or something.

[freebird227]

i am over a year clean but for me  this life of recovery is to continue to grow and change, have more self  awareness. Each stage I go through I come out a little more less bound to the chains that use to biind me.I have a little more understanding about who Debra is and what makes her tick. Each day is a new day and when I make my arrangements I always pray for the tools to stay clean with and the willingness to pick them up and use them.....Good post

[Totsie59]

Well, I am at the 1 month mark....sooooo! But, I am feeling great...those wds taught me a lesson, and it was a lesson well learned...don't want to do that again...

[preciousandfew]

I have a drug question that I need answered.  I have been reading and reading all of your posts in awww, it's amazing how the addiction to pills possesses your very person and very scary too.  I guess I am looking for some answer for my brother who is an admitted opiate addict, however, he will say he just wishes he had a constant flow of it fo rthe rest of his life and he'd be happy....sick.  He's 25 doesn't work, doesn't do much of anything but chase the pills.  He developed chronic staph infections about 6 years ago and they prescribed him vicodin for the pain.  He has turned into a compulsive liar, a theif (he stole pills from our grandmother who has cancer!) he can't be trusted.  He e-room jumps, buys from dealers, and he also has a reg. doc for the staph infections who prescribes him norco every 30 days, which he tears through in a few days.  Recently he was given 5mg/500 oxycontin for "breakthrough pain".  His dr doesn't know he takes pills regularly, but I'm afraid he's gonna o.d. one day from all the pills.  He says I don't understand because I don't do them...can someone give me some incite?  Once I realized he had a problem I started reading up on this addiction, so I know more than he gives me credit.  

Oxycontin is so dangerous, why would a doc give someone such a strong med for a problem that's only painful when he has a sore?  How does the oxy 5/500 compare to the norco or percoset for that mattter?  ie; does 2 or 3 norco = the same potency as 1 oxy 5mg?  He takes between 3 or 4 norco at a time and I noticed when I was with him the other day he popped 2-3 oxy at a time.  I made a comment "aren't those stronger, so you don't need as much?"  He said each kind of pill feels different...can someone give me a quick break down?

[gizzy32]

I am just so thankful to not be in the same stage as R2R, lmao. Oh wait I think I do have CRS too, can't remember, ha.

[dominosarah]

You are correct avis.....we are always just one pill away....scary but we are strong!!!!

[avisg]

Gizzy ,
yup it is scary but it realty its when you forget that that you get in trouble I remember after the first time I quit after I did great for 6 months I thought I could control my usage boy was i fooling myself so now I keep it in perceptive one day at a time :)

[road2recovery]

opps , giz, I see no stage 5...haha...then i guess i meant stage 4!!  told you i had a rough 2 weeks, maybe stage 5 could be CRS---  Can't Remember Sh!T.....
r2r
congrats to everyone, no matter what stage you are at!!!  even stage 5...

[gizzy32]

Scary to think like that, but so so true.There can never be one more time. I just looked at results and the highest percentage is those of you a year clean or more, wow. So good to see.

[road2recovery]

ALthough i am in stage 5..., the last 2 weeks, I really wanted to use...Not because of cravings , but because of stuff going on in my life, that I just didnt' want to feel...Thanks to so many wonderfull people here, that told me to snap out of it, kick my ***, or just a prayer, I needed it all....Today I am ok...And i realize that I need my aftercare more then ever, especially when things happen in my life...which will happen again...I just have to stay strong, and get a kick in my rear when i am feeling sorry for myself...No one showed up at my pity party anyway!!!  hugs to everyone, and thanks u guys for everything!!
r2r

[avisg]

I am one pill away from using everyday but i have been clean almost 578 day every pill free day is a good day

[dominosarah]

I am in between 3 and 4 and that is where i want to stay.  There will always be something new to learn about this ole girl!!!!  Yes the brain damage is minimal......oh i think i just opened a can of worms saying that!!!!  LOL                   MP

[troubleinohio]

Well Im almost a year clean now. I still have my ups and downs but Ive always had clinical depression most of my life. It doesnt help I slacked off my Prozac again for the last 4 months or more. Stupid idiot I am, lol.  Ive started to take it regularly again recently but it takes a long time to start working again, and it doesnt work as good anymore.

I had to start it again though, I was getting bad off the last few weeks- real weepy, unmotivated, over-reactional to situations, feeling hopeless etc.  Im also of course always dealing with stress with the Ex and all that entails. BUT even with all that being said, Im doing much better than I ever was when I was stil using the vicodins! At least Im clear headed and can feel emotions again.

[Ella789]

Still discovering recovery lol   Life is good outta the fog and numbnessl Can get a grip on what is going on with my body, the pain issues.  I am definately doing so much better health-wise.  Sleep is better, weight is better, now if I could just get my house clean and the never ending laundry done........ whew!!!    Well, I'll get it done someday!

Hugs
Ella

[beatingthis]

Still early for me. 20 days today!! I don't think I could have done it with out the help everybody here. Still fighting. Good days and bad. I think the worse for me is when I have a killer migraine almost everyday. I really get depressed that there is nothing that can be done for me and believe me I have tried everything.  Other then that lifes good!

Terry

[SophieShine]

I am in still have not quit, almost there tho after 11 months of tapering off benzos, 90% down. But i feel I am in the healing and self discovery too.
So typical woman, we can't make up our mind. LOL

[sway1]

i am so much more aware of the people i care about. it's like i had been in a fog for so long. i like it, but i still struggle sometimes. thanks for asking. a good distraction was needed today. full moon on it's way! look out........

[enough170]

i am still early in my recovery, 19 days clean today :-) i am feeling positive, this site has been my life line, i take it each day as it comes.

[mojorisin64]

i have been good,i still am here because it helps me so much..and met some awesome people...evreything happens for a reason

[merrymaria]

i voted stage 3.  i feel i am healed...even the brain..lol....and self discovery is what i am living now....  each day you never know what the tide will bring in but i deal with it straight up.  i know i never can go back to that dark desperate place...amen...maria :)
ps..gizzy that weight of no more worrying about pills is the best thing in my life that has been lifted from me.  life is pretty great sometimes

[gizzy32]

I would have to say I am at the healing and self discovery stage. I am still learning things about myself, but feel so close now to recovered and back to where I was. Recovered does not mean cured though. It feels now that the weight has been lifted and I am grateful to have made it out alive with minimal brain damage, lol.

[refusingbondage]

I would consider myself in stage 3.  Healing.  Self Discovery.  Learning to live sober and happy for it :)