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Don't think i can take the pain anymore
it's now my 56th day of c/t from oxys and percs, and my head/neck have been hurting just horribly most of the time - i've spent entire days crying - and when i call my pcp, am just told to go to the ER, where i've already been twice - this is so ridiculous. have appt on thurs to get shot in neck (i'll take the risk of paralysis to get rid of the pain) but don't know if it will help with headaches that began after auto accident years ago when i got tbi (traumatic brain injury) - left side of face bashed in - damage to optic nerves and hearing - and headaches, obviously.
anyway, i'm seriously thinking of calling a dr. who i was seeing for years and years to see if he'll take me back. i initially left him about a year ago when he refused to up my pain meds any further - and look where it got me! with a pill pushing dr who eventually tossed me away.
i'm just so tired of crying for hours in pain - but how do i get out of this viscious cycle? after awhile, pain pills stop working, or only last about 2 hours max for me - that's why i ended up taking more than i was supposed to.
what in the heck is a person supposed to do?
anyway, i'm seriously thinking of calling a dr. who i was seeing for years and years to see if he'll take me back. i initially left him about a year ago when he refused to up my pain meds any further - and look where it got me! with a pill pushing dr who eventually tossed me away.
i'm just so tired of crying for hours in pain - but how do i get out of this viscious cycle? after awhile, pain pills stop working, or only last about 2 hours max for me - that's why i ended up taking more than i was supposed to.
what in the heck is a person supposed to do?
Hi guys - really appreciate all your input. I agree about life being too short, especially at my age, LOL - I keep wondering why I should have to go through so much pain; but it's my own fault for not sticking with a dr who only prescribed responsibly. Now I've gotta see today if and when he'll be able to take me back. He'd been my dr. for over ten years; started with a couple of smaller car accidents (rear ended;head went thru back pickup window - and someone running a stop sign and spinning my car 180 degrees) before the HUGE one that left me unconscious for 3 days. I know he know I was seeing the pill prescriber - they both worked sometimes from the same office - he saw me there. So I'm just praying he'll take me back after about 6 months to a yr. of not seeing him.
The thing is, that I love the clearer head and being able to get so much more done around this place; stuff that I'd put off for years - but I just can't deal with the horrid headaches... and i'm sick of being told by my pcp to go to the ER. I really need a new pcp also, i'm afraid.
Kathy
The thing is, that I love the clearer head and being able to get so much more done around this place; stuff that I'd put off for years - but I just can't deal with the horrid headaches... and i'm sick of being told by my pcp to go to the ER. I really need a new pcp also, i'm afraid.
Kathy
kathy bottom line is dont suffure if you dont have to find a way that works for you life is to dam short to be in pain all the time best of luck FREE...
Sorry your in such distress. If memory serves me, you too have been on the meds for a long time, as was I. My head aches and neck aches took several months (4-6) to subside, maybe even longer, my memory is not the best. Yours may well be the kind from your injury and may not subside in time, however, just for your info. mine did eventually subside in time, just had to ride it out longer than some others. The head aches were on the frontal top of the head and the neck was just so tired from holding up what felt like a bowling ball for so long. I hope you find your answer soon. guv
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Once we cross that line into addiction the word control doesnt exist anymore. We may think we have gained that back but 9 times out of 10 it eventually creeps up on us and we are back at it, usually worse than the last time......its the nature of the beast. sara
Please anyone----be careful when you advise other members that they can now "control" their use of pain medication. I never advise anyone to take medication on their own but rather always have someone hold it for them and dispense when needed and according to the prescription.
I had 5-1/2 years clean, working a solid program, when I had an accident and was offered pain medication. I turned it down but eventually took it to help with the pain of several herniated disks. Because I had so much time under my belt I thought I could take the medication as prescribed and I did in the beginning. It wasn't long before I was doctor shopping and buying it on the street.
As I said, there may come a time when pain medication is necessary but there is never a time when we should be in control of our own dosing.
I had 5-1/2 years clean, working a solid program, when I had an accident and was offered pain medication. I turned it down but eventually took it to help with the pain of several herniated disks. Because I had so much time under my belt I thought I could take the medication as prescribed and I did in the beginning. It wasn't long before I was doctor shopping and buying it on the street.
As I said, there may come a time when pain medication is necessary but there is never a time when we should be in control of our own dosing.
Hey Kathy, im new to this site and im on day three i having no pain pills, so not sure how you should take my advice, but i do agree with one thing someone said in the above comments, you have issues that require pain releif, i see you are 60 years old you probably have arthritis setting into your injuries, this must really suck for you,,, From what i can see is you have gained control, 56 days!!!!! of control, i really beleive that you may be able to control your daily dosage, You can ask your doctor to only give you one weeks supplied prescription at a time, Honestly i think you need your medicine,
well for what its worth, I became addicted to my pain meds and abused them horrifically (most of you here already know this, but Im not sure if you ever read my posts over the last 3 yrs here or not). After going off and on the pills several times, I ended up back on them currently and much to my surprise I hve been sticking to the rules and taking them as RX'd. They dont even effect me the way they used to either. I dont get high or energy from them anymore, they just relieve my pain quite a bit (not totally, I dont think total pain relief is a realistic expectation- but they make it much more toelrable and give me some functionality back) I also know I have the fear in the back of my head what would happen to me if I ever start overusing them again- cant bear the thought of running out early now- the pain wold be unbearable. THat keeps me in check as well. So maybe you could somehow work it out too. If I can, you could too. I was addicted badly and never thought Id see the day where I could take narcotics responsibily, but here I am. I know some of you wont believe me because I have seen posts here that say its impossible for an addict to take narcotics responsibly...but I am.. Good luck to you..
well, there lies part of the problem... neither of my kids want me to get back onto drugs, so neither of them would help me... and i'm sure that even if they agreed, they wouldn't be able to come over here and parcel out pills on a daily basis
if i had to start taking drugs again, i'd have to have a serious talk with the dr first - and if he was willing to prescribe for me - at a far lower dose than i got from the last doc - i'd have to learn to have self control and make myself wait the necessary hours between dosages
if only i had a good neighbor who i could trust - but i don't - and we all know how people are about taking ur drugs... heck, even one of my sons stole drugs from me before, and i went as far as filing a police report, but never took him to court
if i had to start taking drugs again, i'd have to have a serious talk with the dr first - and if he was willing to prescribe for me - at a far lower dose than i got from the last doc - i'd have to learn to have self control and make myself wait the necessary hours between dosages
if only i had a good neighbor who i could trust - but i don't - and we all know how people are about taking ur drugs... heck, even one of my sons stole drugs from me before, and i went as far as filing a police report, but never took him to court
Hi hun,
Kathy, I have told you this before and I will say it again---we are not martyrs. You, of all people, have shown that you are not drug seeking and that your pain is real. I admire you for all that you have gone through and for trying other avenues to help with the pain.
It is to the point that you have to do something. You have no quality of life right now. But here lies the problem....while I think the meds could help you, will you be able to take them as prescribed? I think we both know the answer is probably not. I am not certain that your kids will be able to help with holding them and giving them to you because they have their own problems. So, is there anyone in your life whom you trust to help with this?
Kathy, I have told you this before and I will say it again---we are not martyrs. You, of all people, have shown that you are not drug seeking and that your pain is real. I admire you for all that you have gone through and for trying other avenues to help with the pain.
It is to the point that you have to do something. You have no quality of life right now. But here lies the problem....while I think the meds could help you, will you be able to take them as prescribed? I think we both know the answer is probably not. I am not certain that your kids will be able to help with holding them and giving them to you because they have their own problems. So, is there anyone in your life whom you trust to help with this?
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And yes---ABSOLUTELY---you need to be on a much lower dose. the amount you were taking before could have downed a heard of elephants.
Find out from the doctor if you are eligible for home health care. With that service they can come and give you your dose a couple of times a day and you may only have to dose yourself once, as an example. Ask about it Kathy, it is worth a shot.
Honestly, I do not see "self-control" coming into play here. I live with chronic pain every day Kathy and I can have pain medication anytime I ask for it but because I know I cannot control it, I just won't go there. If I thought I could find relief every now and again with the pills and control it, honey I would be at the head of that line in a minute!! But that isn't going to happen for me.
While you are waiting to talk with the doctor, keep talking here and getting suggestions. Hang in there lady.