so called friends

[stilltrying1965]

this was one of the hardest nights of my life peps were offering me drugs over the phone so i switched it of how i am ment to beat this when peps that i thought would be happy for me try to trap me in my addiction some good friends iv got how can i win this war when peps keep phoning me and trying to get me to use again aggggg hate them so called friends James

[Laur85]

For me, i couldn't just turn off the phone... I actually had to move from Pa to Ga... Almost a year later and doing great. :)

[merrymaria]

just part of our recovery....you did good....we have to face these challenges every day for the rest of our lives....i was at a party last night...was offered coke and pot....not my docs but tempting....i just said no i must drive tonight...i drank water, 7up and coffee...no one said a word.  as the evening progressed they kept doing more and more lines....i sat there and listened to everyone sniffing and hearing their noses all clogged..uggh.....they were not happy... kind of nervous and weird.   i can imagine how they felt this morning...i feel good....no big head.  there are going to be tests that you have to pass and it s sounds like you just passed one with flying colors....i would delete these so called friends...right now you are the most important thing in your life....keep strong...maria

[dominosarah]

baby steps it is James.......sara

[stilltrying1965]

For the help,support encouragement and complete honesty. your help i admire your words stay with me forever your poem Letakos means so much and also says so much to me it makes complete scence for me to help others who are less fortunate than me its been a long hard struggle but one i am winning 2010 drug free and sober i could not have done this without your help and great advise thank you at mh all so much James HAVE A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR I SURE AM,,,,,, CLEAN ,HEALTHY AND MOST OF ALL HAPPY ,,,, AND NO MOST OF MY TRIGGERS .... BUT WE CAN NEVER SAY NEVER AGAIN,,, WHO KNOES WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS .....FOR US STILL BABY STEPS FOR ME,,,, AND I WILL GET THAT BACK BONE SARA ,,,, I WILL CHASE THEM WHO TRY TO TAKE ME BACK TO THE HELL OF HEROIN ADDICTION

[imrprod]

Go to meetings and find some new freinds that don't use.  Misery loves company and your "friends"  don't like you quitting because then they have to face the fact that they have a problem.  Go to NA or AA and get help staying sober alone is hell and rarely lasts long term.  Meetings are fun and the people are cool they are just like you and they can relate to where you have been and where you are trying to go.

[10356]

The Gift

The Great Spirit said, “I am going to give you a tremendous gift.”
“I hope I am worthy of this gift,” I replied.
The Great Spirit said he would inflict me with a disease.
“Disease as a gift?” I asked. I could not fathom illness as a gift.

“What you do with this gift depends on you,” he said.
“You can treat it as a curse, or accept it for what it is.
You can lament or make the best of it. It is up to you.
What you do and how you act will prove if you are a Warrior.”

He struck me with Polio and paralyzed my legs.
Doctor’s said I will never walk again.
But I did. I learned to walk and run.
I thank the Great Spirit every day.
He taught me that those without legs are worthy.

He struck me with Graves’ disease.
Life was pure hell for a few years.
Loss of memory, pain, and tremors,
But I got better.

I learned that by helping others with Graves’
I could help to heal myself.
I learned that helping others is a worthy cause.
I learned I had the strength to keep going
Even when I had no strength left.
I learned that as bad off as I felt there was another
Who was worse off than I who I could help.

I learned that instead of reaching for a helping hand
I had become the hand that was reached for.
Instead of being in the abyss I was on the edge
Helping others out of the void.

The Great Spirit said, “I will take your vision.”
My eyes bulged and pained.
Vision started to dim and colors were lost.
My eyes went askew and looked in different directions,
But I got better

Sixteen eye surgeries,
Much pain and discomfort,
Orbital Radiation on my eyes left me with cataracts,
But I got better.

I learned that even with no sight I was worthy.
I saw with my mind what my eyes could no longer.
I learned that by helping other’s with eye problems.
I helped myself.

I am a Warrior. I no longer look at a person the same.
I see what is inside them not the shell of the body.
Instead of seeing a person in a wheelchair
I see a person who was given a gift.

I see the Great Spirit gave them a gift too.
I admire their strength.
I admire their courage.
I admire their will.

I pay homage to a fellow Warrior as we pass by.
I thank the Great Spirit for these gifts.
Fore they made me the man I have become.
I love you James and Kim.. Happy Hew Year !! Letakos

[dominosarah]

Dont give them the power to make you feel weak James.  You are the one who is clean.  They are not.  You are way ahead of the game.  We have to get you to get a backbone here and stand up for yourself!!  Follow Kims lead when she tells them where to get off!!!  You cant run and hide from your past and with your counseling now that will help.  You will also gain some self confidence and will be able to kick these clowns to the curb...

Almost new years here.  11 minutes to go!!!               sara

[stilltrying1965]

I have switched the phone off but afraid they will come to the door so we have had to spend new year sitting with the phone off and the lights out. Its people i havent even seen for ages i dont know how they even got my new phone number but i know they are trying to drag me down just because they cant stop but im NOT going back down that road again ever. If they do come to the door kim will answer it and tell them where to get off but they have made me feel weak. I dont even know how half them found out where our new house is as we cut all ties from those people a long time ago. Obviously someone i trusted told at least one of them my number and address. Its made me really angry too as it was the last thing i needed as i was feeling a bit weak due to some personal family circumstances. But i did not give in and i will not give in......James

[dominosarah]

If you get involved in some meetings James you will find others who will support you in your recovery.  I have found some really neat people in mine.  You are going to have to just get tough with them when they call.  Let em know where the bear sh!ts on the buckwheat!!!!!!  Sometimes you just gotta get rude.  Stay close to the forum and dont answer the phone.         sara

[kalie1979]

I have the same problem in my life, like right now me and my mom are not talking because shes pissed that I want to quit. So you don't need people like that in your life. Get new friends that kind that wants the same things in life. Your friends just want to drag you down with them, and you are better that that. Happy New Year, and be proud of yourself for not giving in:-)

[avisg]

You have to cut all ties with friends that use. You are so  right if these were people that cared and really were your friends they would have never have offered you drugs.It is a hard lesson to learn but you are learning them getting stronger and moving forward that is a very major thing ....

xxxooxx
avis