When you got clean were you TESTED big time??

[Sad_Woman]

I am set to jump off the dust dose of sub I'm on. But in the last few days I have had the worst luck ever - or the devil himself is trying to break me. First a cat I've had a looong time passed away suddenly. I came downstairs and there she was in her litter box barely able to walk and drooling..the vet said she had a bad stroke. I had to put her to sleep. I was devastated and still am. Then I go to a doctors appointment and my van is stolen in broad daylight!! To top it off ALL my kids back to school clothes, carseats, stroller etc was in there. My husband has been out of work for MONTHS now and we are too broke to buy another one. I'm nearly ready to lose my mind. I strongly feel like some unseen force is trying to destroy me. Did anyone else have crazy bad stuff happen to them when they were struggling to get clean? This is insane!

[mookie377]

glad to see you trying to maintain sobriety.I dont believe that god has nothing better to do than Test-Human Beings.I believe Life-happens some times for the Worst,but mostly as a result of our own actions.I think its how we React that is the question.We can play the Victim,or we can take it at face value accept the consequences and make today a better day.In the Moment is all any of us have.Living in regret of what happened yesterday,and the dread of what tomarrow may bring.that philosopy makes us unhappy (Today) Keep your chin up and your selfesteem will build one day at a time. All the best John

[LeaAnn807]

Yes, I'm tested in some way every day.  Sometimes a big way.  Sometimes not!  I've been through some pretty nasty medical and family stuff since I got clean.  If you want it bad enough, you'll keep your sobriety.  Are you getting any kind of aftercare?  Do you belong to a church?  They could be very helpful to you at this time, I'm sure.

I'm sorry.  I know it's not easy!

[mwi3240]

First of all, God Bless You!  I pray for peace and strength and divine intervention for you.  I'm not totally understanding what you mean about the dust dose, but I think it means you're near the end.  So yes, the devil prowls around like a lion waiting to devour us!  You don't want to go backwards!  I think you can find help.  At my school there is a social worker of sorts that helps people like you in need.  There are also many caring people in the school system if the word gets out that will help you with the clothes.  As far as the vehicle, I'm not sure.  I hope you reported it stolen.  One good thing, no kids in the van when it was stolen.  I absolutely don't have all the answers for you, but I do have one..  Keep going on your road to getting off of drugs.  Even if you have to use public transportation and sleep in a shelter, those are forward movements.  Getting back on drugs is falling back into the fire!  Prayers and well wishes your way.

[dominosarah]

Yep many bad things came my way including jail but i walked away with my sobriety/clean time, something noone can take away from me.  My family is mending, relationships are healing, the material things no longer matter to me.  I do understand what you are saying tho as losing your vehicle and all the school stuff is devastating.  I would check into Human Services or the Salvation Army and see if they can help you.  Keep your chin up girl!  I hope they get whoever did this to you.   sara