Day 11 - Progress and Challenges

[Brightfutureahead]

Well here is the end of day 11. I'm working on being honest with myself and others. I now have 2 meetings under my belt and one session with an addiction therapist. One of the meetings was for women only and it was super!  I received a lot of support...and phone numbers with kind words of 'call anytime.' It was nice.

Interestingly enough, after the meeting, I had to go to drop off some photos at my dad's house. I was so mad when I pulled up in the driveway and nobody was there! Now that alone wouldn't seem to make someone feel angry - but the thing was - I have been avoiding going over to my dad's house because I know there is a bottle of pills in my brothers desk drawer and with no one there...well...you know I don't have to explain...

(I do know that, ideally, I should tell my family so they are all aware...well, what can I say I'm taking small steps I'm not there *just* yet). One step at a time...

Anyway...I just sat in the driveway for a few minutes, got myself together, walked in, dropped off the pictures, and left. I told myself "Ok girl go ahead- take one. Then what are you gonna do tomorrow if you do? Start this mess all over again?" I really didn't feel like riding that roller coaster so I just drove home...feeling proud :)

Thanks as always for the support ...one day at a time.

"They say it's always darkest right before dawn."

Bright

[SunnysideUP27]

Great job! Definitely passed that test. The cravings do go away and you made a very important step. Day 11 is a huge accomplishment. Over the next week or 2 you will notice big changes in the way you feel. Keep up the good work and remember you are going to feel better than you ever have on drugs. Good luck

[Sonrissa]

Hey Bright! You should be so proud of yourself! At 11 days out, I don't think I could have been that strong! Stay strong, and keep moving forward, as you say "one step at a time"!  Take care! You have done amazing!

[Free2agoodhome]

Good job!....good points made above...... Now don't forget to share that with your new group of recovery peeps..the drugs seductive ways diminish when you share it,,,,..

I really like the "thinking the buzz through"... I try to do the same...yeah ok take a few vics.....nice buzz maybe but guilt ridden so not really fun....then back to letting my life revolve around the crap again,,,,thinking about it..gettting it.,...counting it,,,,,rationing it...anxiety when running out....and on....
then the  idea seems stupid .....but,,,since I cant always rely on my judgement all the time (proven ...lol)..i keep a host of tools ready,,,,this place is one of them....

Rootin for ya

Free~

[weaver71]

That's great you chose life. Every success makes one feel stronger and stronger. I'm glad you are going to meetings and making new friends. Addicts are awesome people. I think I receive the majority of my strength from people who have been there and are now free. Living examples make me want what they have. Congrats on continuing to make good decisions.

[kyle505]

Yes - telling your secret is the next step BUT what you did, or didn't do shows a lot of progress. There was a day last week when I too didn't get pills that were available; but just in case I told my wife. Sharing took the pressure off.
Good job.

[Brightfutureahead]

Nursey you said it perfect! Thanks oo

[Nursey7]

Hey girl I am so proud of you!! I just sent you a message. I am one day ahead of you in time but I think you got me beat in progress! Definitely baby steps just can't do anymore than that. The biggest thing is the choice we make each day not to use, everything after that pales in comparison. Everyone kept saying how the mental part of detox was so much worse-wow never have so many people been so right!  As long as we keep sticking together it will be alright ;-)