Day 14

[jc1002]

Thanks from the support of all my new found friends, I have been 14 days clean.  I couldnt have done it without your help!  Most of the w/d's have really subsided somewhat.  I still am fighting the exhaustion, but aside from that and the aching back, I feel so much better.  It really does get better every day.  Thank you all so much.

Sounds like I might have missed a little drama over the weekend.  I hope everyone is ok.  I know that we can be very emotional during hell week and beyond.  This is a great site and if we keep giving the gift of hope and success to each other, it will continue to be.  

much love to al!
jc

[selfinduced]

What a good question. I found I had a problem when I started to plan my trips around pills. I hated these pills at first as they made me ill so , how could I be addicted? Then before I knew it my body was dependent and I knew I was in trouble. Once I got clean I thought...ok, I was just dependent, not addicted. Guess what, I manufactured a reason to use again and my body was not dependent anymore. Found my answer right then... I'm an addict. Hope this helps.

[jc1002]

Thanks Dixie.  That helps.  I figured that would be the answer.  When we turn to chemicals to deal with problems thats a bad thing.  

jc

[Dixiechick72]

Jc... As I see it anytime we took a pill to mask emotions we are an addict. U don't deal with life hiding behind pills... Maybe for some yeah they can take it for pain.... Ok a good example. My brother who is my NA support. He was a full on addict. Did every drug out there.  He sobered up and has been clean for a few years. Two yrs into being sober he did get an infection that caused him so much pain. But this time he was able to take a few pain meds til it cleared and stopped no problem....
Idk if that helps or not... But as I see it if we take it to mask emotions. We are addicts.

[jc1002]

I need to ask a question and I dont want this to taken wrong.  My question is, Is everyone that has abused this drug (vico) an addict?  Maybe this is the mental kicking in for me but just a curious question is all.  I have taken this drug off and on for almost 2 years.  Yes, I took it to cope/deal with an unhappy situation.  Does that make me an addict?  Or is it the characteristics of the drug that make it addictive therefore you become an addict?  I know that there is probably alot that goes into the answer.  The reason I ask is that I dont really have an addictive personality, meaning I really never get attached to anything, except kids...  LOL  I hope someone might be able to shed some light on this for me.  And please I hope no one took my question as an attack or anything...  Its a question that will prepare me for continuing my quest.  :-)  

Much love!
jc

[selfinduced]

YIPPIE! 14 days is amazing! It's all downhill from here. Rejoice in your clean days and protect them with all you have. The mental will start to mess with your head about now. Get a plan for further support whatever that may be. You have got to be proud, I know I am.

[Dixiechick72]

Hi Jc... I was just calculating for u and bones clean time!!! Woo hoo. Happy dance. Maybe I'll even take a few swings at the golf club for u men!! Lol who knows where that will go but it sure will be fun!!! Lol and yes we missed something over the weekend... Not sure what. But I know I'm here to offer support. I've got enough drama in life!!! Lol anyways so proud of u!!! U may still feel sluggish this week but it should start to pick up. Ur body is still healing!!! So hang in there and congrats!!!

[thewaz]

14 days is so crazy good.  It was a true turning point for me.  Third week in the light just got brighter each and every day.  Be proud of you. I know I am.  Be patient with your body's healing.  It's so hard to be. I get so impatient at times. Much love right back at ya!  Yay for you.