Day 17 - actually feeling good today

[luciddreamrgrl]

I'm on day 17 and for the last 2 days Ive actually felt normal! I can't believe it. I'm still apprehensive and thinking maybe this won't last. But this is the second day in a row I have actually felt good. No sleepiness, no depression, no cravings and best of all, no panic attacks!! I was just so excited that I wanted to share.

I'm at work today. I feel the way I used to when I would work without the vicodin. I'm starting to believe that the vicodin was the cause of all my anger and mood swings. I would get so angry for no reason when I was on it. I would cry so easily. Anyone else feel this way after getting sober?

Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you all for helping me through everything. I'm sure I will have bad days to come but I figure I should celebrate now while I'm feeling so good.

[luciddreamrgrl]

And the best part, no pill counting and no worrying about how I'm gonna get my script early. No embarrassing moments at the pharmacy. No depending on getting my energy and happiness out of a bottle. I feel so free!

[luciddreamrgrl]

Thanks everyone!

You know innerstrength that's the way I was at first too. I thought the vicodin made me a better person. Maybe in the beginning I was but towards the end there, I was always moody. I would run out of my meds early and then be a terrible person to everyone around me. Now I seem more even all day. Sure I have my moments but for the most part, I'm way less emotional. So have lots of hope. I'm starting to remember myself before the vicodin! It feels pretty good.

[Innerstrength67]

Congratulating!!! Thank you for posting and letting us know how your doing. You give me hope. I was depressed, angry and had mood swings before my hard core Vicodin addiction. Scared I will feel the same way. But I guess we must make changes in our lives.
Thanks again and Congrats!!!

[spanky595]

      Sounds good just keep on doing what is working for you.   The withdrawals from detoxing will get better keep posting and let us no how you are doing it helps us to hear from ya.   Have you been to NA they will help you to being around other recovering addicts.   Hang on enjoy the ride.

[atthebeach]

Wow sarah I am so happy for you. That is awesome. You really do sound great. Yes the pills definitely cause mood swings.anger,outbursts,
crying,depression. The meds have so much effect on your brain chemistry.
I am so proud of you for sticking with it and forging forward. You are healing and each day you will feel better. Yes there will be highs and lows but that is life. We all have good days and bad days.we have to learn to roll with the punches. Continue with your therapy, be strong,keep believing,trusting, and praying.
Hugs and continued blessings
Debbie