Day 19....great day....many thanks!

[Michelle_Shawn]

I just wanted to thank everyone for the tremendous support I have received during this difficult time. I am on day 19 of my detox from a 3 1/2 year maintenance with suboxone. I went to rehab in Dec of 2005 and luckily get very involved with AA/NA afterwards. I truly believe without that, this would not have been possible. These past 19 days have been the most difficult and trying times I have ever dealt with. I am overwhelmed with emotions from joy to regret. I am so grateful to be completely free from medications but I do regret being on the suboxone for so long. During this time I somewhat felt betrayed - like I served my time in rehab and recovery - why am I going through this detox process again. However, that is neither here nor there. The bottom line is today...for the first time since I stopped the sub's...I felt okay. I did not have the chills, I am not consumed by anxiety, and hell I even slept last night. And while 19 days doesnt seem very long, to an addict it is. I thought of picking up every drink and drug in those 19 days but because of the encouragement i got from people here and at meetings - I didnt have to. I know there are still difficult days ahead but for the first time I feel hopeful and for that I thank everyone. And for everyone going though the suboxone and methadone w'd - hang in there. We can do this. We have to fight for our lives back. Sobriety wouldnt be so precious if it werent a sruggle.

[cathy5841]

congrats to you on your 19 days off sub.  sub is a beast to beat and you are doing it.  keep on fighting...you deserve your freedom...

ella:  you go girl, 17 dyas clean is awesome...keep on fighting.

[Ella789]

Thank you laurel453.  Yeah, the emotions can kinda sneak in there if we don't keep em in check!!!!     The MIND........... the final frontier........, and boy is it big!

Hugs to all
Ella789

[laurel453]

hey, congrats for your 19 days clean ( and ella for your 17 ). i liked reding your post and most of all, your spirit, keep it high, your are right this a struggle and sometimes a real fight with ur minds and emotions, but it can be done and its sooooo good the other side and freedom. :)

[Ella789]

Hello and Congradulations !  Wow, and 19 days IS a big deal, not a small task!!!!!  
I never used anything but Lortabs but was surely addicted to them and 17 days ago I put them in the past and there they will stay!!   I feel like I will be okay now and that is such a good feeling.   I do not know anything about sub or meth but I understand they are demons to withdraw from so hats off to you for beating the demon!!!!
I think you will feel better every day and you deserve it!  Keep the faith and the fight you will be okay!

Ella789     17 days opiate free and that feels good!!