Day 2 and feeling ok

[shro]

I posted on here once before that I have a 10-15 a day roxy prob aka perc 30s.  Shortly after posting I relapsed.  Some of the posts on here really touched my heart and made me think about what i was doing to myself. I was snorting them for the rush and I'm sure that wasn't making the situation any better.  Tonight I am going to my first NA meeting and I am a little scared but I have been to GA and I'm sure it is probably simular.  I have told my parents and a couple friends and everyone is being real supportive calling me and texting me all day.  I just can't fall off this wagon again I need to move on.  It's not so much the physical withdrawls that get me it's that I have used this drug in every social situation in the past 3 or so years and I don't know how I will react to these situations without pills.  Even before roxys I was heavily addicted to xanax and before that coke and heroin ecstasy the list goes on.  I am not going to turn to anything else this time because I am stronger than that.  I have a job that demands a lot from me and the people around me that have no idea about the pile of skeletons in my closet depend on me for answers.  I have been chasing the dragon for so long that I don't know what to do with my spare time besides getting high.  I am however proud to be on my second day with no urge to call one of my many connects and even though I don't post that much I would like to thank the people that do post on here you have helped me more than you can ever imagine.

David

[Calamity2]

Way to go David!!!  Dont forget if you get too cold you can microwave a microwavable heating element to put in your clothing. I used snuggle safe pet warmers but walmart has some others.   Keep up the good work!

[evoduality]

I am a lifetime drug addict also, seems like we share the same story, for me I graduated from roxies to oxy's to everything else.... I started week II David, and I must warn you the first week isnt that bad but try not to get beat up man because Its whats killing me right now... The depression, mental disorientation thinking about all the things youre talking about ive spent every social occassion oh wait Ive spend my life ******* high.... to me sobriety seems like the new thing to do... kuz i dont get high i get " normal " so keep me posted it on how youre doing and im gonna keep u posted... unless i hang myself because i have tied one arm to the bed so i cant relapse and im shaking uncontrollably... heroin will kill u mix it with oxy's and u got ureself a war to try and get off... Day 9 signing off

[sweatinit]

Hey, COngrats on Day 2! If you have a chance, go to my journal page and read the post about relapse. It may help you understand why it happens so frequently. So glad you're going to a meeting! I ahve never been but from what i hear, ppl are super accepting. Good luck and try to post. I would love to hear of your progress! God Bless you.