Day 3 Oxy withdrawal

[ctblues]

First time I have ever posted anything. I am on my 3rd day of oxy withdrawal. This is pure hell. Everyone knows the symptoms. I started using morphine in 2000 after an accident crushed my 4th vertibrae, I was on a pump. I learned how to manipulate the pump and after 7 weeks of 1000mg a week, I went ct. Worst days of my life. You think I would have learned from that. I am 53 years old, sober from alcohol 11 years. I started using percocet 10mg a day 1 year ago. I increased the amount and then went to oxy's. first 40mg a day to where I am now...100mg day. I have to pay street price. I decided to quit wednesday, it's friday morning. I just got a call letting me know they were available if I wanted some...I told him to never call me again. The crash isn't worth the high. I figure I am almost over the worst of this, maybe another 2 days max. I did get a visit from an old friend this morning, my first woody in 6 months...very interesting. There is no way I could have posted this the last couple days, I must be getting closer to the end...Unbelievable hell. I know I am doing the right thing, oh man it sure is tough, especially knowing a phone call will end all this...

[ctblues]

66 days and the monkey is still off my back. Sure I think obout using, I romance it for awhile, then I get a reality check. I come back here and read my journey. Pill free for 66 days...pretty awesome. ct

[ctblues]

Thanks, my last pill was Tuesday, Dec 7th @ 7:PM. I remember that like yesterday. My thought was save the pill for the morning, or be done with this life right now...I had to attend my grandson's school Christmas concert Wed. morning at 9AM. I remember sitting there looking at all the parents and grandparents thinking, no one has a clue, here I am getting ready to go through detox, full blown cold turkey...here we go, the calm before the storm...time to break the chains...I was already starting to feel extremely tired, my nose was starting to run. I told my family I thought I was coming down with the flu...

So it's 30 days today!! I can't tell you how glad I am that I don't have to hide my life, today, what you see, is who I am.

Yeah, that is cool. Thanks again. This site made all the difference, good people that really care. I just googled oxy withdrawal on my 3rd day, and clicked on it, next thing you know I posted...the rest is history...I feel pretty good, and proud of myself.

I never want to go back to that life, ever...the monkey is off my back.

I wish everyone going through the early stages of withdrawal the strength and determination to hang in, the reward is worth it.

ct

[Dav125]

I think it adds up to day 29 :)  Thats cool!

[laurel453]

Hey, Congrats on this your first month !!!! :) well done !

[ctblues]

I am getting my clean days all mixed up...am I on day 30 or 31...it doesn't matter I guess, the important thing is I am clean. ct

[ctblues]

Day 25...
Good morning, Thanks people for your support yesterday. Thinking back, it doesn't seem like a big deal today. Flush it and move on. I am in a much better mood this morning. I think if I found it today, probably wouldn't have been an issue?

Your right F_H_L, I would feel regret, I feel guilty just thinking of what I was thinking...however short it was.

Anyway, new day new me...New Year. New chapter...
ct