Day 3 cold turkey

[Nursey7]

All I am thinking about is my opiates and feeling the high for a few minutes. I have a whole crew of family in town and I have been a terrible host. It makes me feel 10 times worse about myself right now. I am just feeling really sick and having a hard time. I guess it's gotta get better.  I love my family with all my heart and I have got to make the best of these last 2 days

[toothfairie]

wanted to lend my support!  congrats on the clean time....and you will feel better soon....just hang in there girl!  you can do this...you ARE doing this!  

[Nursey7]

Thanks for your support; it means a lot. It just gets frustrating feeling so crappy and trying to be so pleasant. I can't get it through to my husband that it's a disease. He had cancer last year and I was there every step of the way. It's the same to me!!!  No matter what you believe you should be there to support your wife of 19 years!

[chesney24]

That's really scary reading your post.  I know you probably don't want anyone to know what you're going through but it sounds like you need to talk to someone.  I only say that because of the whole thinking about suicide.  Don't let the addiction destroy you, you can do this.  As far as you being ashamed,  we are all in the same addiction boat, you are not alone.  Don't be ashamed of yourself, be proud that you are trying to become clean.  It's hard but you can do it.  Keep talking on here.  Although I'm new to posting on here I have been reading it daily and its been encouraging.  Keep your chin up, you are doing knee of the best things you can do.   We are all here when you need to talk.

[chesney24]

I have taken Lortab prescribed for 13 years.  26 days ago I took my last one.  Iwas taking 6-8 (sometimes more) a day.  Like you my script never would last.   My withdrawals were the same, sick stomach, leg cramps, RLS, nothing real terrible.  The fatique seems to be worse the last 3 days.  I went and bought some vitamins, ones listed in the above posts and hopefully they will do the trick.  This fatigue *****.  Anyone else have the fatigue this late in the game, is it normal?  It's really freaking me out!  If anyone did, how long till I feel better???  I had my first real breakdown yesterday, just crying and feeling sorry for myself.  Even went as far as tearing my room apart looking for just one because I knew it would give me some energy and I would feel better.  I'm really glad I didn't find one!

[Overwhelmed10]

Hi there, I just wanted to offer you support.  I can so relate to the family thing.  I had some family issues that occurred while I was detoxing the first time around.  It's just unavoidable at times.  I'm so glad they know about it.  Hiding it makes it 100 times worse.  I know it's hard for non- addicts to understand how we feel.  I'm at day 11 now, and my hubby just doesn't "get it."  But we all do on this forum, so keep on posting and good luck!!!  

[Wantanormallife]

Hang in there Nursery as I'm in the same situation as u are! I'm going through hell & have a family to look after as well! I'm really sorry to re/post my story here as no body replied to me post & I'm SO desperate! Good luck & I hope to god we can get through this quickly. Sending u positive thoughts & strength...

Hi,
I have been misusing dihydrocodeine & co-codamol in the last (almost)1.5 year just because I could & it is available to me. I have felt so depressed after the birth of my daughter 3 years ago & shortly after that husband & me bought  a Business together which meant working together 5 days a week & conflictions & criticising for EVERY single thing started ( what a surprise!! ) so I started taking first co-codamol & then dihyrdo to just space me out, chill me &make me able to COPE with everyday work. I'm also mum of 2 young children! I knew I WAS going to be addicted to this damn thing ( dihydro) but didn't realise coming off it would b a hell! I realised I needed more & more of it to space me out! But can't take it anymore! I'm more depressed & desperate than before! Im so ashamed of my self.I want to come off this s****t. I have reduced from maybe 12 30mg to 1-2 in the last 3 days. It's hell! I have decided not to take any from tomorrow no matter what. But the cramps, pain, sweats,snapping at husband & kids just killing me!
PLEASE if u have any suggestions to help me get through this , it's very welcome & appreciated. I am so low I have constantly thought about suicide. I have to go back to work on Monday & dreading it! Please suggest any home remedies u know. Thanks for reading this.      

[atthebeach]

Good morning Marianne how are you feeling?

[Nursey7]

Thanks Sarah!  You made me cry;
I just want to be worth it again

[dominosarah]

You will get thru this and honestly being up and active is the best thing for you.  Getting those endorphins working will give you an extra boost.  You keep fighting with everything you have, you are worth it~

[Nursey7]

Wow very powerful!  It's so true too. I honestly worry about my liver more than anything!

[Nursey7]

Thanks Leanne! You will always have a special place in my heart. I am so so proud of how far you have come. You have been through you so much and have hung in there strong!

[Brightfutureahead]

Hi old buddy...hang in there and like Meeg said, take it easy your health comes first! I could never find an NA meeting that I really liked but I found some really good women's AA meetings that I feel very comfortable with. Lately I've been in the stage where I really have to force myself to go to one- but I keep moving, or sometimes trudging, along. It's like going to therapy or exercising...really don't wanna to but afterwards u feel so much better! Anyways, glad ur back around. pretty soon it'll be a week and you'll be saying "how did that happen?!" thinking of ya always.

[Nursey7]

Thanks Meeg!  I have seen you a lot on here. I have read your journals and I know you have been through a lot!  We all just need to stick together!  Maybe one day I will find an NA meeting that I feel comfortable with. I hope you keep on keeping on!!!

[meegWpaw]

nursey, I don't know you but I remember when you were on here before becuz ive been on so much myself, relapsing and trying again.  I read your first post and I want to tell you that you can do it!  its really hard falling down and getting back up again .... and again ... and again ... but wow that is so tight that you keep trying!!! yay!!!! keep going.  just be you and don't worry about the hostess thing.  your health comes first.  here for you ... Meegan

[VICourageous]

I have been thinking of you so often..I know you are having a tough time with this.Maybe you should stick around here more like you did many, many months ago..I know it is not easy..The stages just seem to roll into new ones as each month goes by..I have had some tough times in my 7-8 but I just stopped over analyzing things and just said STOP!!! It will all get better..It moves like a Turtle and we want it NOW..Well I do know that it does get better if you just give it the time it needs..So Time is the Greatest Healer..I am glad to see you back on track..Now keep up the Support because we can not do this alone..OK lol

[Nursey7]

Thanks your words meant a lot to me!! I did tell everyone I am out pain pills and I am not doing too good!  My husband of course gets pissed that was even using again and my mom,brother and sister in-law just kind of laugh it off!  Unless you really are an addict no one is gonna get it and I understand that. I am by no means into sympathy but man a sympathetic ear from a family member would be awesome!  I am doing it little by little!  Thanks again for truly caring as this disease stinks!

Marianne

[jifmoc]

Oops, sorry you said 70 days not hours. Sorry. Oh, well, another fab learning experience, rt?

And who knows maybe some family member is funny or goofy or weird and it will distract you. That could really help. Any consolation: I'm not gonna do it, but I WANT to use so badly also. You are so so so so so not alone!!!!

[jifmoc]

I just hit the 96 hr. mark, still feeling weak, and could NOT be a host, or a good one. Listen, you are allowed to tell people you think you're "coming down w/ something" or any number of BS reasons so YOU don't feel the pressure to be a good little hostess. Screw that! And think about it, what's more important, your sanity/recovery or them having some good potato salad or whatever. Think of YOU first. You were one of the first to write me and you are amazing. You are almost AT the 70 mark anyway!!!:)

[atthebeach]

your next high could result in your death.....no one is exempt from overdosing.............

[atthebeach]

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Addiction-Substance-Abuse/Just-one-more-time--could-be-your-last/show/1943779

[Nursey7]

Thanks hon!  I should know my family loves me too even when I am not the perfect host, not that I ever was anyway- LOL!!!  And you are right it dies keep my mind occupied and that is a blessing. Thanks for caring

Marianne

[Nursey7]

Thanks Kyle!  I feel like you are there at the right time again-wow!   I would give anything to get past those  70 days I had the first time. Day by day, minute by minute.

[kyle505]

Wow...You never do things the easy way. You can get through this. I was in a similar situation once, but my family showed up unexpected when I was on day 2 detox after a very long Vic run. They didn't seem to notice, but I sure did. Anyway, just keep moving; write when you can.  I'll be thinking about you.

[ariley13]

P.S.
Congrats on your 3 days clean!! :)