Day 4 - Quitting Hydrocodone

[C8H10N4O2]

Day 4.  96 hours.

I really wasn't sure that I was going to make it this far...  Last night, I took one more plunge and ran the written script I had in my hand through the shredder.  It felt pretty good.

I know I said it before, but I can't wait to get to the pain management doctor next week and when she starts asking about the meds to tell her that I'm not on anything.  Especially since she told me there wasn't a good way to get me off the meds in the short term the last time I asked.  In fact when we discussed the pain, she offered to change up and add more.

All in all, I don't feel that bad.  I'm tired, but drinking some coffee.  Went looking for L-Tyrosine this morning and struck out.  I checked a pharmacy and the one of the local grocery stores and didn't find it.  There is a Whole Foods close and I'd be shocked if they don't have it, but I didn't feel like driving that far.

I'm still chugging along...  (I think I can.  I think I can!  I KNOW I can!)

Matt

[C8H10N4O2]

I managed to figure out why the pain came up and slapped me so hard earlier...  I had forgotten to take ibuprofen since this morning.  Had the hot bath, took the ibuprofen and then chilled out for a bit and I'm feeling a lot better.

After my wife and kids got home, I cooked (and ate) supper, so that's a good thing.  I'm still sore but nothing like before.

How strange is it to go from counting the seconds between doses to forgetting that you need to take something?

Matt

[Kevin_Bacon]

You're an inspiration, Matt. You write like the kind of person who's so determined, the reader can see that you're getting out of this one -- from what you've written, it's a sure bet.

Keep osting, and good luck on finding L-Tyrosine ... if it helps you, then go for it. I'm surprised you can't locate any -- it's usually in stock at smaller pharmacies.

Again, great job, and I'm certain -- absolutely certain -- that you have this thing beat.

[C8H10N4O2]

Well, I've made it to 102 hours.  That's the good news.  The bad news is that I'm starting to feel crappy again.  I swore I had turned the corner so to speak when I got up this morning and didn't feel like death warmed over.  Even managed to eat more than I have in a few weeks.

The aches came back with a vengeance.  Very sudden and a lot more severe than they have been in the last few days.  I'll hit the hot bath here in a few and see if that helps.

I'll take this as punishment.  Operant conditioning or something like that.  

In fact, that would be a good thing...  If I start to think about the pills again in the future, I'll smack myself with a hammer in the knee to remind myself the joys of what I'm going through.

Matt

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Yes, Matt - - but knowing what you know, you also know that you are the one in charge of changing things back. Thats the main thread.........

[C8H10N4O2]

Wow... That ended up being longer than I expected.  I figured that I'd write out the story of where I got to where I am.  As I wrote, I realized there was one main thread through the whole thing.  I _knew_ what was happening the whole time.  Regardless of anything else, I didn't have my eyes closed.

I guess that is the scary part.  I let myself get here.  It didn't sneak up on me.

Matt

[worried878]

good for u..feels good to be in control..will feel good to show off in front of the dr as well!  LOL...sounds like u have ur ducks in a row..telling ur dr is a big step cos often it means cutting off ur supply...but it also means u mean business...post and let us know how that visit goes
I had a pain mgt dr who argued with me bout getting off as well...said i needed them...that i could get off anytime and he would help me with sub...and i knew i dint want to go on that ride..cos having done sub before i knew it tickled my fancy...u should be proud to turn down that scrip..or to quit when u dint have to quit...keep posting

[beatingthis]

I am soooo proud of you!! Wait until the next couple of days! You will feel like a new man!

Keep up the great work!!

Terry