Day 5

[Peg626]

Okay, here I am at day 5 of Hydrocodone w/d. I made myself walk aroud the block, take a shower & go out to eat yesterday. I'm not feeling quite the desire to do that today. I have a Dermatology appt. I have to go to in a little bit & I'm hoping that forcing myself to go there will make me feel better than just laying here in bed, waiting for time to pass so I can feel better. I've read that days 1-5 are the worst. I certainly hope so. I'm SO ready to feel normal again!

[dominosarah]

I remember the early days of my wd's....worried would always tell me to get up and move, hit the gym, exercise etc.  I always thought i am glad she can do that!!!!  Well i decided ya know she is on this forum and she had 3 months clean time and to me that was a million years in my world so i started to walk around my house and then down the block and then more blocks etc.  It was the best advice i got other than the vitamins i needed.  I started sleeping better and feeling better.  Some days it was tough but i figured if worried said to do it i had better!!!  Thanks worried for getting us off the couch and up and moving!!!!!            sara

Peg.......keep moving forward and way to go on canceling that script!!!!  That is great!!!

[Peg626]

Well fortunately that stuff scares the hell out of me now. I see that it is NOT my friend & getting away from it is hell on earth. Also. . . I'm going to be moving to a 3rd world country in a few weeks. They don't have Hydrocodone on the island. I know this b/c me & another student that is plagued w/all kinds of health issues tried to find a pharmacy on this small island that had the license to sell the stuff. Not even their hospital has Hydrocodone! I will be on this island for over 2 years & although I'm not a fan of the island, I can't think of a better place for me to be!

[worried878]

I know the feeling! everyone thinks this is just so easy to do..like pronto
I told my best friend who drinks wine like a fish and smokes a pack a day..love her...but she said/like one week after quitting/laura u will never wanna do that again will u?  I said..let me have ur pack of cigs and tell u never to have a glass of wine again..not ever...she looked at me really funny..but i think she got the message

seeking aftercare can be the diff btw relapsing or not relapsing..many use the forum for aftercare..meetings or counseling is often better..people leave the forum only to relapse and come back..not many here are long term posters..just a hand full...be sure u have a plan to stay clean//cos that is the hard part

[Peg626]

Thanks for the kind words! I don't know if I would have been able to get through this w/o the help of everyone on this forum. I'm going to do what I can to keep cheering on those that are fighting addiction. My husband & family have treated me like I've only had a migraine for 5 days. I keep saying things like: "I've been detoxing for 5 days!" or "After going though 5 days of hell, detoxying & getting that stuff out of my system, NO I did NOT refill my pain meds!" The most of a response that I get is "oh well, I'll bet you're glad to be done w/that now. Are you going to get a refill?' My husband who works nights NEVER called me the 1-3 nights to see how I was doing but whe he left the house today & I was over visiting friends, and later tonight, he felt it necessary to call & see how I was feeling. Sometimes you just have to hit people over the head. I was glad I had a good friend that watched over me as best as he could during this whole time. Otherwise, I had NO support (other than the forum) while going through this & probably would have relapsed very easily. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK EVERYONE!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[worried878]

and u will survive!  when we take pills we feed our body extra endorphins...the human body is a fine tuned mechanism..it knows it is getting an outside source of endorphins so it will automatically decrease production...then we cut off the outside source and the brain has to catch up..it takes a while to do this..can be up to 90 days..exercise is one of the major fast ways to produce these endorphins..kick start the brain..it works!  during wd i would feel normal after 5 minutes on the treadmill and it would last for hrs..even a walk around the block/run in place/dance to ur fave tune...moving works///congrats on ur clean time..dont forget the reasons u quit as time goes by..keep those reasons fresh in ur mind..keep posting

[Peg626]

I'm glad to hear you say that exercise/endorphines will help b/c I'm going to be on a very hilly island in a few weeks. I will spend over 2 years on that island & will be required to be active everyday.I've said this in a previous post and I'll say it again, I think this island will be the BEST possible place for me to be during my recovery there. I will be under tremendous amounts of stress but I will be facing that stress face-first/head-on b/c I won't have ANY Hydrocodone in my system!!!!

[worried878]

the fatigue was the toughest part for me..i am a fast paced person..fatigue doesnt fit into my life..clean 30 days and melting into my couch..i remeber it..i could make it out the door to work if i did a rocket shot but i could sleep 16 hrs a day if i coulda...i made it tho..i got up off the couch and hit the gym..activity produces much needed endorphins while our brains heal...at this time/the first 90 days/we can use all the help we can get...i dug deep into the thomas recipe and took the aminos at the recommended dosage/lots of pills but i did it...tyrosine did more for me than anything and i knew dopamine was my need...after 4 mths i started on wellbutrin/both stimulate dopamine release..i am no longer on an AD...but at this time i needed it.....look into the recipe..altho Thomas has passed he left a great protocol in the health pages

[Peg626]

I'm here for you!!! I remember my previous few days SO WELL!!! I was glad I didn't have any pills to fall back on. Although. . . . when I went to the pharmacy for something else & they showed me that they had 60 Norco just waiting for me. . . . that wasn't easy to resist. The only good thing is that I can be pretty stubborn when I want to be, thankfully in this case. The sun DOES help. I've never been a "sun goddess" so to say I was negative about the idea of it helping me w/ANYTHING, is mimizing it at best. I was taking more Hydro. each day than you but that in NO WAY minimizes what you're going through! This afternoon, I've vacuumed & dusted most of our house, plus done some ironing. Finally, it's almost 10:30 & I'm tired. I'm hoping to sleep through the night but. . . . I'm not so sure I will. STAY TOUGH! I know it's hard & sometimes you'd do just anything to make it all go away. It would be better for you (I think, only my opinion) if you had NO PILLS at all to fall back on. I know how hard this is but you may prolong getting through this if you have anything to fall back on. Congratulations on getting clean & although I plan to be out & about tomorrow (for the first time in 6 days), I will try to check this as much as I can. STAY STRONG!!! I will be pulling for you & thank you for being there for me too!!!

[Debntexas]

Way to go girl. I can say for sure I am really proud of you because I know just how you feel and can relate.  I went 3 days without and was so sick I thought I would die. I broke down at 1 this afternoon and took 1 vicodine and regretted it as soon as I took it. It did help with the nausea but what will tomorrow bring? I don't have but a few more and when they are gone thats it. I was taking 4 sometime 5 a day so 1 is a big plus for me. Together we can conquer this devil. I just dread the nights cause I want to go take the valium to just put me to sleep but I will just sit here all night and type and sweat it out if I have to. I did go four wheeler riding this after noon and lay in the pool for a couple of hours because I heard the sunshine will help get me out of the wanting to sleep all the time. Who knows maybe tomorrow I may even put my makeup on. God knows I look like hell right now. I am here for you if you need someone that can relate to you.

Debntexas

[Peg626]

Well, today started out poorly but not anymore!!! I took a multivitamin & started to have some energy. I went over & talked to my best friend, and I've been cleaning the house! I feel SO much better! I am nervous about sleeping tonight but I'm trying not to concentrate on that. For all of you out there who think there is NO HOPE, keep plugging away!!! IT DOES GET BETTER!!!

[Peg626]

Well, I took a daily vitamin & then FORCED myself to go for a 30 min. walk. There are times that I am determined to not let this stuff beat me. . . .  and there are times when I just want to give up! I'm just feeling so beat down from the jitters. . . . and of course they're much better than days 1-3 but I'm just SO SICK & TIRED of them!!! I HATE feeling this way!

I went to the Pharmacy last night to grab some melatonin & also to tell them to cancel an unrelated Rx. The girl said, as she put the bag on the counter "Oh, are you cancelling your pain med Rx?" There it was, in the sack, ready for me to take. . . Norco 10. I said "Uh, no I was actually here about another one but YES, cancel that one too!" I have no idea when that got called in the by dr. or when it was filled but I did feel VERY good about telling them to cancel it. My husband will go to work here in ~2 hours & then I'll be here all night. . . . but my biggest supporter will be able to be on skype w/me & for him, I am so thankful! He flies back home tomorrow & I'm hoping we can get together. Not only do I want to see him but he can distract me from how I'm feeling. .. . . and doesn't allow me to stay in this bedroom w/the lights off all day & night. I hope day 6 is MUCH better. Of course, I've said that everyday. But I'm also hoping I'm over the hump. . . . most w/d last 7 days & I'm on day 5 so. . . . .here's to keeping my fingers crossed!!!!

[Alabam]

U may already be doing this but if not, you may want to start taking a good multi vitamin, they even have a "One a Day" multi vitamin that has something added in to give u energy. It won't be the pick me up that you are custom to but it may help. Good Luck!