taper report night 2

[wransomejr]

Well, it was better than the first night but still no sleep, dangit!

I cut half my intake of Tramadol when I started to get off that, and I have pretty much done the same with this Hydro. The first day though I took far less than half. Yesterday when my mother finally got up around 8:30 a.m. I was climbing the walls. She gave me a single 10mg and I took it about 5 mins later and shortly was higher than a kite. That is NOT what I expected or wanted. I haven't felt like that the last weeks of taking 40-50mg at a time! I was pissed! I just want to taper and moderate the w/d symptoms, NOT get high. I switched to 7.5's I took four pills total yesterday and like I said, no sleep but the rls was less intense and the night went quicker. No highs either after that first time. I can do this. I am going to stick with this until I feel more normal and then cut. No trots yet, but I have had some short bouts of nausea...just no bodily response to them.

I know that the detox is totally doable. I am okay. I just do not want to get high! Bleeping demons! -Randy

[wransomejr]

Amen...

[wransomejr]

I just want to say I appreciate the tough love. I also appreciate the acceptance and experiences shared on the forum. Both are important, I think.
Randy

[133113]

Good job on the taper.  As you know 2/3 of it is psychological and 1/3 physical.  

Keep the positive attitude and you will do fine.  Also make sure you cut your supply off.  Each and every time I have relapsed is because I have had access to the pills.  This was the hardest step for me.

[wransomejr]

Thanks. I have heard all this, and found it to be true when I got off Tramadol. I am trying to be disciplined about cutting down the amount of drugs I take which psyching myself up to really quit. I think you really have to be ready for that fight. I have wanted to quit for a while...wish me well that I stay ON the wagon this time. I really don't want a third strike. -Randy

[wransomejr]

Thanks Pat. I know my mother's support is important. However, Wendy made a good point about not overtaxing her. I have a choir rehearsal tonight, and then a funeral Saturday. I have got to take a week off to do the detox, so I am trying to arrange that. -Randy

[Pat1956100]

I am on day 6 and I think you are doing great.  sounds like you really want to beat this.  I wouldn't have made it through without the support of my 85 year old mother.  She supported me over the phone and I talk with her at least 3x a day.  She feels good helping people.  Yes, I felt bad having to tell her but she understands and has been a godsend.  They will always be our mothers no matter how  old they or we are.

[overopiates]

It sounds like u r doing good with ur taper&glad to hear that u dont want the high while tapering.Heres the thing of u r dealing with w/d anyway&taking the equivilant of30mg a day(-7.5)u could go c/t with some supplies from the store at this point.Most people would say not sleeping is the worst w/d symptom u r already dealing with that(otc pm meds will help btw)I would say jump rather than drawing out the w/d which u will STILL have the same length of time after u finish ur taper.U will b through the worst of them n3to4days.Just my opinion.Good luck

[4WendyJ]

Let me know how you are doing.  I really do care.  Only my best to you.  WendyJones

[wransomejr]

No, Wendy...I am not angry with you or anyone other than myself. My mother has drawn a line (she is the only non-addict in a long family string, I suspect only due to her own vigilance) and is helping me by keeping my pills. That is all she will do. No money, etc...

You are probably right of course, about adding to a woman (age 77) with her own set of worries. We've talked about going to our family doctor but haven't called him yet.

And I agree about thinking we know what is best for us. I suspect at best we do a lot of rationalization. I know I do. Blessings...

[wransomejr]

Thanks Gnarly, but I haven't been on Tramadol for over a year. I went back to my first DOC when I fell off the wagon, Hydrocodone. I don't expect any problems just figuring out how best to balance coming off the drug and the severity of w/d symptoms. I don't expect help developing a taper plan...know that is against the rules. Today was better and when I took my morning pill (one instead of two or even three) I did not get that soaring high I was so upset by yesterday.

[gnarly_1]

you need to slow your taper down or your going to experience withdrawals the tramadol can give you seizures if you go to fast this is best to get a doctor involved for safety reasons beter safe the sorry good luck and God bless.......Gnarly