Day of Reckoning

[Fritz67]

Good Morning all, I'm up at my regular 5 a.m. to get ready for work and cook breakfast for my kids.  I'm reading all the posts to give  me a boost and motivation as I do in the mornings.  Today is my last day of pills!  I have ONE 10/325 norco left.  1/2 later and 1/2 when I get home from work and bam!  That's it!  

I have been tapering for quite a while, I did it SLOW like so many have suggested and it's worked like a charm.  So thanks all! CT was not an otpion for me, work, kids, housework, homework, you name it - oh and I'm a single mom.  The wthdrawals were very, very mild!!  Mostly sleep ***** but last night after 1 trazadone and all my vitamins (daily,vitamin E, CoQ10, Fish Oil),  I crashed and slept 6.5 straight hours!!  Wow, that is rare for me.  I went from 12 norco's a day to where I am now and it's been WORK.  And discipline.  I'm not free yet but so very, very close.  After today, I have none left but the slow taper has served me well.  

Like others have said, a few months down the road, I can imagine that we DO forget how miserable we were and we start eating the pills again so I think I have a cure for that.  One night, when my heart was racing from taking all the pills and I was in bed, alone and freakng out a bit that I was going to die (with my kids in their beds) in the next room), I grabbed my phone and did a little video of myself and wow!  Scary!  I wanted to remember how awful I was feeling.  I do not want to be that person again or feel that way again.  It scared me so much and that night in particular, I thought I was going to die, no kidding.  That will cure you wanting to go back to where you used to be.  Or journal when you have one of those moments and go  back and READ IT.  

Wish me luck everyone, tomorrow will be the day I'm an entire day free of these pills.  That hasn't happened in 3 years!  I have been taking these every single day for 3 years.  Holy ****!  The time has come and I'm way jazzed about it.  I can't wait for my freedom.  It will be a habit change, I took them when mad, when happy, when I cracked a beer, right before bed, sometimes woke up in the middle of the night b/c I was jittery, I ate one every day when I woke up.  God!   What a terrible life and I want it behind me. Oh god and then when I ran out??  Chasing them around town so I woudln't hit those withdrawals was a nightmare too.  No more!!  No more!!

Thanks all for your posts and letting me watch your struggles, this board really gave me the strength to get this far and I will keep readiing, especially when I feel weak.  Cheers!

[feelingblue222]

Great job and good luck.  You can do this.  keep posting on the site as this will be a tremendous resourse and the people here will give you lots of support when needed.  

[SwtGyrl69]

Hello Can I ask you tapered....I have been taking percoset and lortab for 4 years with this last year up to 60mgs a day...1-10mg 6 times a day....I dont have many percosets left as i do not get a script of them..I think i have 20-5mgs left....I get a script of lortab5 But beings my husband is in true pain and lost his doc because of no insurance I give him 30 of my lortab a month leaving me with 30.....plz any help would be greatly appreciated...My main time for wanting 1 is when i first get up ...I have NO ENERGY even with taking them now...Never have been a big energy person think i am lacking something...