Dreaming of the DOC

Question

I'm a week away from 3 months clean, super stoked about that first off. I know dreaming about the drug is common among the early stages of recovery, but this far out? The last 3 nights have been a dream of me finding a stash of pills. Last night I was pulling clothes out of closet and and maybe a bottle of 30 fell on the floor and I remember the dream was me contemplating a relapse or not because I had a hand full. Rant rant but this dream kind of got into my head for some unknown reason lol. Then you wake up not knowing if it was real and if you relapsed and don't remember ha. Tricky brain

motye51 · Answer

Just wondering..........are you doing any type of aftercare b/c honestly, everything your describing is normal.  Aftercare can help with all of these feelings your feeling.  I found that once I was clean for a bit lots of different feelings and issues came back....kind of bombarded me actually???  I needed to learn what to do with them, where to put them and how to deal with them without using.  I can't suggest aftercare enough.

LorneGreensEnmy914 · Answer

Same I wake up panicky and then feel relieved when I realize it's a dream but now it's happening every night this week 5 night in row. Last night wasn't about pills but more of all the bad things I've done while high and just really beating myself up while sleeping. Now I'm so down in the dumps it's affecting my mood the next day I've been real anxious like scared/jumpy over the dumbest little things (nothing major but) jumping when my cat walks up (I'm 25 not normal). Anyways I finally googled and something came up called pawns it was saying how all these symptoms that have came could be me still w/d from the opiates from 3 months ago. It's. It's nothing like the first few weeks lol that's a different hell, this is more of just a mental fog and my brain like getting depressed over it feeling body wise I'm great. It has been rainy and humid here 97 degree Texas rainy weather can also make you mad so who knows. I think it's this pawns stuff seriously I think when I'm sleeping/dreaming I get a taste of what type of war is going on in my brain all day long!

Danny111 · Answer

I quit drinking over 25 years ago and every so often I still have dreams where I'm drinking again.  The funny thing is I always notice that I'm drinking and then shortly after that I start to wonder how long it will be before it becomes a problem.  Then I wake up and I'm so relieved that it was a dream.

motye51 · Answer

I think using dreams are very tricky and clever!  Our disease is very tricky and clever.  I didn't have a using dream until I was at about a year clean.  I was in FL on vacation having a drink in the pool.....in my dream I looked great, the weather was perfect, everyone was having a good time.....that almost NEVER happened in reality.  How our brain tricks us into remembering it in a fake way blows my mind!!!  Or going to a bar, getting drunk and dancing all night; I've had dreams AND daydreams about that as well!!  But I never had a night where some stupid **** didn't happen, I didn't get in a fight with someone, vomit somewhere, get kicked out or (my favorite) break out in handcuffs!  
Our disease is cunning, baffling and powerful.....but the fact that you know the dream isn't real, is a really good start!
Using dreams are normal, you just can't get stuck there!