Ending day 3

[Kfred]

well... hmm... I don't have much interest in the things I was doing while on hydro.  Computer games, building models, fishing, gardening.. all pretty much out the window.  Been sitting around, watching TV, playing a little with the kids and newborn son.  Wife is a little non-understanding but I guess I deserve it.  The pure lack of motivtion and energy is just mind-boggling.  Having all the typical depression, self-esteem, "why didn't I do better in life"  -- feelings I read about..  wow...  I am a very successful car salesman and I've been thinking "I'm just a car salesman"  what a worthless life/career...    argh...

[EmilyPost]

(((((Kfred)))))

Ok well; from your screen name I can see  that you have a sense of humor and that's good! I would just be aware that alot of the talk inside your head right now is withdrawal talk. It's designed to get you to start taking drugs again. To demoralize you and make you feel bad, the cycle will sometimes lead you back to what you are trying to quit. I had a really clear understanding of what was me, and what wasn't "me." But it was fuzzy in the beginning.

Sometimes I also think our perception of people can be off during withdrawal. The more my DH discovered about the drug I was taking, the more he understood when i would say, "Yeah, I can't even really move right now. I'm in too much pain."  Granted now that it has been 21 days, it's coming back upwards ...

The fact is you are being a good husband and father by quitting the drugs that would ultimately kill you or make you into a mean or hateful person. And that is a good man. Even though you have to suffer withdrawal; you're doing it!!

You'll feel so much better with each day. Be encouraged and know that it gets alot better.

Love and healing,
Emily

[worried878]

Yey...i call it the doomers!  everything seems more intensified and negative right now...just remember it passes and u will not feel this way forever..hang on

[wanttobeclean]

Hey kfred...I'm right there with you.  Sorry your wife isn't being totally supportive, but I guess with the newborn son, she's got a lot going on too.  I have no interest either...none.  Thank God I'm off work for a bit and can just veg and do nothing.  My hubby is helping and taking the kids to day care to let me chill as much as possible.  We're getting ready to turn the corner soon...I'm sure we'll get through this!

[gizzy32]

it won't be long before your doing all those things again. energy was the last thing to come for me and it can be very frustrating. all those self pity thoughts happen to most of us when we first quit. our bodies and minds hate us cause we are depriving it of what it wants, but i promise it get better. congrats on doing this and once your feeling better in a couple days, get the wifey some flowers, take her to dinner and later that night she may show you that your not worthless, lol. hang in there man