Energy observation.....

[scaredanddesperate]

One of the biggest issues I notice that people are concerned about when we quit is the lack of energy. Someone posted something similar to what I’m about to say a long time ago and it really helps me put things in perspective. A vast majority of us kept using because of the energy our DOC's gave us. This energy wasn't normal but it seems to me that every time I relapse I use the energy excuse. I have to tell myself this: I didn’t have that kind of energy before I started the pills so I’m not going to when I’m off the pills. Does this make sense to you all? Basically, I think we are waiting to feel the “normal” we felt while on the pills. We weren’t normal, we were high! Another thing I read on here is that we had bad days, unmotivated, being lazy-insert your feelings ____, before the pills and we will have them after the pills. It’s important for me to remember this stuff as I detox for the 40 millionth time maybe this will help you!

[worried878]

i can relate.....the energy they gave me is what kept me on them...a friend uses them to relax at night...i am like  "what?"  i never took them close to bedtime/i wouldnt sleep but all day and i was so efficient..til the end of mu using days..they turned on me...no matter how much i took i couldnt get that 'energy' back..then u miss it   and u chase it...and it is gone...for me anyway...guess it was a good thing or i may still be chasing that high...chronic pain makes me fatigued so they hit my pleasure point...i remember a month or so after i quit sitting here wishing i felt like going somewhere/i live alone..i worked my 40 hours a week and that was it after i quit for a while...depressed...what happened to the energizer bunny?  LOL..i would crave so i would feel like doing something..feel like moving...feel like living...i cracked down on the supps and on my gym routine...i had to do something...i was tuning into the recluse i was before i quit...it passes...time and meetings and exercise/healthy living....7 motnhs clean in a few days

[AnnieNYC]

The energy thing is soooooooo true! That was the "reason" I gave myself for my major relapse 4 years ago, after 2 years of being clean and perfectly happy. I had just got a new job, and somebody at the same time offered me a book contract. Hooray, right? Well, it's kinda impossible to do both. "Unless," I said to myself, "I go back to the pills! Then I'll have limitless energy!" Yippee, I was soooo happy. And so foolish. Didn't finish the book. Didn't keep the job. All I kept was the habit.

Actually, I do remember having loads more energy before I ever started. What I got from the pills was not exactly energy--it was more like the ability to go without sleep. I wouldn't say I was really sharp or fit...just awake. Just another lie we tell ourselves about drugs, I think.  

[Beth105]

I knew people i could get this 15 & 30 ms contin from but i didn't take them i liked the hydro and the percs a lot better...
I am almost through with day 1 thank GOD!
What does tomorrow bring?

[extrmeski]

I don't know but it seems that I had tons of energy before I got stuck on pain relivers for my back.  But when trying to quit, I seemed to never got over the feeling of "walking through mud".  The energy just never returned.  Now that being said everything I was going through in my life was horrible too so maybe my problem was exaserbated by depression.  who knows but the point is well made.

[Penelope14]

Thanks for the good advise you shared, this is so true. I dont think I'll ever have the masked energy that I once had during my past drug use, and I guess this is something that we all must come to terms with. Penelope

[scaredanddesperate]

Got it. I was a recreational OC user and the energy was the only reason I even took it. There were so many crappy side effects (nodding off when sitting, iching all over, even throwing up) but still used over and over for almost 2 years! I'm working on it though

[Beth105]

It's a diet pill, my pain management dr told me I need to lose weight and that would help lessen the pain I am in. He is still going to do injections 'm just not going to take narcs except soma, I have really bad muscular pain in my neck and back.

Beth

[scaredanddesperate]

What is adipax? I suppose I could google it but since you've tried it thought i'd ask you. I'm just curious, not going to get it or anything. I did get a B complex in liquid form and I really do notice a difference in energy levels this time.

[Beth105]

That is so true I can identify with that feeling.
I was so scared about being tired, I got my doc to prescribe
adipax anyway, thats not helping, i feel way too jittery.
At least day 1 is half over!
Beth