FIRST POST! Day 5 hydro Complete!

[JohnnyBee114]

Although this is my first post, I've been reading this forum for the past year trying to get the courage to quite my hydro/perc habit.   It's been 3 and 1/2 years since a severe herniated lower back disc got me going.   First two years were 20mg - 30mg per day only at night but then a case of bronchitis and a bottle of Tussenix got me to 60 mg, 80 mg, 100 mg and as much as 120mg per day.  I've been wanting to get my life back so I made a plan to quite on labor Day weekend taking the Friday before off to give me a 4 day weekend.   Last Thursday, August 28 was my last day.  10 mg perc in the am and 10 mg perc at 5:00 PM.   I went from 120 mg dropinig 20 mg every day for 5 days to get me to the 28th.  I'm now just finishhing day 5 with ZERO mgs and besides the EXTREEM need for immodium and 2 mg xanax at night to sleep (I get 8 hours with it, 0 hours without it....thank God xanax does nothing for me other than make me sleep so that's not a problem)..   However, I expeted severe agony doing this and while very, VERY uncomforable, the WB was not as bad as I expected based on what I've been reading the past year on this post.   Sure, I was miserable and had a 3 day headach that advil did  nothing for, I would not consider it agony.  I was more pissed off that I wasted my last summer weekend, avoiding parties and BBQs with the kids.  I also noticed that I could not drink a SINGLE beer without making my headach EXPLODE!!  OMG!!  Booze was so out of the question during my WD.  Anyway, I'm on day five and feel great.  Was this WD based on my dosage and length normal?

I have a few questions that I'm hoping you can help me with.

By no means am I planning on relapsing but realistically, I've noticed that many on this forum took 3 or 4 trys to get it right.  My question is if I ever slip, even with one or two 10 mg hydros or percs, will I go into immediate WD?  I'm afraid  that if I do slip, I'll be terrified of the WD again and will contine to use.  I know I said it wasn't agony but I wouldn't want to go through 4 days of that again!  Any thougts on how to handle a relapse?  

Also, how long till I can sleep again without xanax.  It knocks the **** out of me but only 2mg can get me any sleep.   I litterally will stare at the ceiling all night without it.  

Anyway, thanks to so many of you who I know but you don't know me.  I've been reading for a year and the success stories and happiness you all talk about is something I'm so much looking forward to.   I used to read the bible everyday since 1984 until this started.   Then, too tired at night to take it out.   I think it's time to take it out again although I feel ashamed of what I've done.

Thanks everyone!!

[Mandapanda17]

congrats on quitting!! Its hard to do, but possible!:) I wouldn't take any more pills, it might make it harder for you to quit next time and if you've already gotten to day 5, why go back? As far as the xanax goes, I would try some melatonin to sleep. It knocks me out with a smaller amount of xanax and I had already been on xanax for 6 months prior to quitting vicodin. I'm on day 18 of cold turkey from the vicodin and am still taking 1-1.5 mgs of xanax a day, not that thrilled about it! congrats again and glad you posted!!

[worried878]

sounds about right for u dose ans close to mine and length of use close as well  first 4 days were flu-like  back to work on day 5..wasnt that scary for me...not something to repeat every weekend but doable

[dominosarah]

Congrats on day 5.  That is great you are getting your life back.  The sleep will come back.  That and the energy are usually the last to come back.  Dont worry about what you have read.  You have been a prisoner to these pills long enough.  Time to move forward and see all the great things life has to offer clean.  You can do this.  Keep posting and am glad you are here.   Stay strong          sara

[starfish1963]

Im with Sara on this one.  Don't even think about one, because that will probably lead to more.  This is my first attempt to be clean and I did it cold turkey so I would never want to go back again.  Day 12 and I wish I could sleep so you are far ahead of alot of us of course my addiction was a much higher opiate use and I started on hydros and percs prior.  Keep up the great work and don't go back, it isn't woth it.

[JohnnyBee114]

I'm not going back!   It's the  morning  of day six and I'm up before the alarm clock and no headach!   I can't remember the last time I woke up with such a clean and sharp mind!   I was NEVER out of bed for more than a few seconds before my 1st dose..   Always woke up with a stomach ache and a runny nose before.  

I only asked about the relapse in case it happend.   I don't forsee it and really don't expect it but I just wanted to be prepared so I will never slip back into long-tern use again.   I've missed too much of life already to let that happen.  

Anyway, thanks for the suppprt and I'll keep posting!    Off to the coffee machine and the immodium bottle!