Feeling lost

[Mickey1974]

Hi. I haven't really admitted before how dependent I am on nurofen plus and have been reading through posts here and have just recently realised where a lot of my trouble is coming from. I really really want to get of these horrible little pills, but feel quite alone and isolated as I have never told anyone. I don't take hundreds like some people but do take them every day and mostly just to make myself feel good to get through the days. Any help and support would be greatly appreciated.

[jenjen1966]

Just wanted to say hi and offer my support. My hubby is also a long haul truck driver. Like my inspiration ariley above, I did the first week of my detox in the truck. I am home now, and hubby just left for at least a month. You can find some great advice and support here. Good luck on your journey!

[ariley13]

By the way, my boyfriend is a long haul trucker. I go out on the road with him and actually did my detox on the road in a semi truck! So, I know all about the isolating and lonely lifestyle that a trucker's wife/girl lives. Hang in there.

[ariley13]

I am lacking any words of wisdom right now, and I believe my friend Annie said it all very well. I just wanted to welcome you and let you know that you can do this. We will be here cheering you on every step of the way. Stick around. This is a wonderful place to get support, encouragement, and good advice. Take care and try to keep your head up.

[EvolverU]

Sorry!! (Duh..my name is Annie -- as opposed to the less common Annnie)

[EvolverU]

Mickey, we're here. Everything you describe is familiar..the fear of living w/o your DOC -- the pushing your friends away, etc. Are you sure there's no one in your family -- maybe a sibling? I can't stress how much this would help to let this out & have someone in your actual environment to lean on a bit. I've been on MH for 9 months & I'll tell you what I've noticed. In the vast majority of cases the thing that upsets those near & dear to us isn't the actual addiction but the lack of trust -- that we didn't come to them sooner!!

Fear is your enemy in this. The key to a good detox is planning ahead & a good attitude. So, you'll want to stock up on Imodium, healthy food, a good supplement, perhaps an essential amino acid supplement like whey isolate. You can also go to the bottom of this page in the lower left hand corner & check out 'The Thomas Recipe' which will give you some excellent detox tips. Get determined, my friend. You ABSOLUTELY can do this. Start telling yourself that in every moment of every day. Try to make a list of all the reasons you want to kick. Many, many people who've come through MH & many who are still here have kicked in circumstances like yours & worse.

This site is an amazing detox asset. Read the posts for inspiration. Go to people's pages. Read their journals & statuses. I'm going to send you a friend invite right now, You're welcome to Private Message (PM) or note me with any questions you may have or if you simply want to talk, vent, joke -- whatever. As I said, others will be along to help support you & give advice. Here for you, my friend!

Annnie

[Mickey1974]

Thank you so much. I was nearly in tears reading your quick responses. I an on the OTC nurofen, so I haven't spoken to a doctor. I started them about 6 (maybe more) years ago for period and back pain. I have a very loving family, but they are very religious, and I know if they would understand. And I seem to have pushed many friends away, preferring to be alone most of the time. I do have a great partner, but he's a long distant truck driver, and is rarely home. I kind of feel like I live in a fog and anything that's a problem or serious,I tend to push aside and try to forget. I have made the decision to quit, but am scared of life without the fog I guess.

[EvolverU]

HI there Mickey, Welcome & thanks so much for reaching out! First, I want you to know that you're NOT alone here. There are many wonderful folks here would be honored to offer you their hard-won wisdom & time-tested advice.

The isolation you're feeling is not unique but it's certainly not helpful. Secrets & 'aloneness' can be our worst enemies in getting & staying clean. Have you considered the possibility of reaching out to a nonjudgmental friend/family member & telling them about your addiction? I can't tell you how helpful this can be & what a relief it will be to you. It would provide you with some much needed support & will keep you 'witnessed' when you do kick. It makes it harder if no one knows b/c we have only ourselves to fall back on when our habits start whispering to us when things get rough it's so easy to get sucked under again. You could also go to meetings in your area or counseling/therapy which would give you a chance to hear people's stories/see that it's possible to do successfully & a give you a chance to network w/ clean & sober people.

Please, let us know what you think/feel & keep posting for support. We're here, my friend & we're pulling for you, You CAN do this!

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome!!

You are not alone. All of us here can identify with what you are going through.Some of us have made it to the other side, some have not. It is a great place for support and every member here has something to contribute no matter where they are in their recovery or addiction.

If you don't mind me asking...Are you getting the pills from a doctor? Are they for legitimate pain? Are you willing to admit to your doctor that you have a problem?