I can't really want one after all this...can i?

[Flutterby111]

I need some support here.  I just got off the worst withdrawls of my life, Hell is an understatement.  It started last Friday and I'm finally feeling better today, and I had a little glimmer of urge to take a pill...is that sick or what?   How quickly my body/brain forgets all I just went through.  I was going through my cabinet of drugs and my guardian angel was telling which ones to dump and I said what about Tramadol and she said flush it and I just about got sick-the thought of throw even those away and I only had gotten one prescription of those, although I took almost the whole damn thing in 5 days.  Sick sick sick disease.

[worried878]

keep posting...here to support you and for our own support as well

[toxictome]

Welcome to this forum..both of you. As you know,there is a lot of help and support here.

There are a lot of new people on here in the last 3-4 days..I get confused who I've talked to and who I haven't.

keep hanging around and posting...

TOGETHER WE CAN!!!

[Flutterby111]

Yup. exactly.

[rosebud66]

Giving you yet another pill to make you feel better in your tough times i bet.

[Flutterby111]

I never did those things either.  The doctor gave me all my pills.  ALL OF THEM.  And I'm kinda mad at them right now-but that's a waste of my energy, I know.  It's tricky when you trust what they prescribe you and think it's ok because it's legal.  But, I know I was abusing.  and I suffered highly for it this weekend.  Thank GOD my boss was undestanding because he could've fire me for missing so much work....Where would my doctor have been then?  

[rosebud66]

My struggle is with myself actually.  I have never been to the hood or done anything other than take what the Dr. has given me or even had to lie to get it.  The problem is that I know.

[Flutterby111]

So you don't want to talk about your struggle?  Just taking little steps?  Which is totally fine.  It's tough.....

[rosebud66]

Thisis the first day i had the guts to post actually.

[Flutterby111]

I just started here today.  Never even knew these placed existed.  Just came off a crazy trip and learned there are others that understand.  

[rosebud66]

I guess for the first time ever.  i Have been lurking for awhile and must say I am very impressed with the quality of people and the love and support I have seen.  It really is amazing.  The last time I talked to anyone on the computer was years ago in silly chat rooms where ther are a bunch of idiots.  This was not at all what I thought it would or could be.  

[Flutterby111]

But you are.....................you are here.  Talking about it.

[rosebud66]

i am not anywhere.........................................................

[Flutterby111]

How far are you?  When is the last time u took any?  Are you trying to quit cold?  taper?

[rosebud66]

oh good.  this will not be the last time you think about it but just try to remember the hell you were just in.  it was not that long ago.  i wish you all the luck and sure wish i was as far along as you are.  talk about being scared, think how i feel facing what you just made it through.  keep it up!!!

[Flutterby111]

Oh, no I already did flush, it just made me sick in my stomach when I did.  and that scared me.

[rosebud66]

go flush them all we will wair for you.

[cathy5841]

we all feel those urges from time to time.  you gotta stay strong and fight it, it will pass.  good luck to you,
cathy