Going Cold Turkey!

[totalicsworks]

Hi everyone,
This is my first time posting. I wanted to start off with a little history. In jan off 99 I was hurt at work, had my first surgery in 2003 and 5th surgery feb of this year. I have been in pain management since 2003, been on just about every prescription pain med out there. I currently take roxi 15s and kadian 20s and soma which is a big step down from the fentenyl patches and actiq pops I was on before.
Like I said, im in pain management and it has gotten so bad I eat my entire script in about 2 weeks and then buy 30mg kadians to try and get me thru till my next appointment. I usually save a few roxis just to be safe incase they decide to urine test me.
Anyway, I am in pain, bad pain! But I also admit I love how these pills make me feel.
I want to get off these for good and im trying to mentally prepare myself because I am starting cold turkey tomorrow and don't have any one for support and I will be doing this alone at home. I dont work because I am on disability and workers comp.
I'm trying to figure out how to accomplish this and still go to therapy twice a week and live life.
What makes this tough is I have a legit need for the meds but go freakin crazy when I get them, I guess this is how I got here in the first place......

[ChasingFreedom]

Clonidine is wonderful for helping with the blood pressure which is a normal symptom of withdrawal.  Once my blood pressure got under control the anxiety seemed to diminish too.  Right now you are probably asking yourself if this is even worth it, and I'm testifying to you that it most certainly is.  Your body WILL feel whole again.  You are going through the rebooting process.  Once your body is done ridding itself of the toxic drugs you've been feeding it you will be back up and running like new again.  And you'll most likely discover that you aren't in as much pain as when you were taking the meds.  They have a way of tricking us and keeping us in more pain than we would normally be.  Freedom is within your reach.  Only YOU have the power to get yourself there.  Awesome job on 7 days!

[totalicsworks]

Thank you, and yes the clonidine helped alot!

[Missy1231984]

Congrats on your 7 days!   Did the clonodine help a lot?  

[totalicsworks]

7 days clean of roxicodone, morphine and 3 days since I took my last soma! Having a much better handle on things since I called the doctor and got this clonodine patch. I know I'm far from out of the woods but life to me is already 100% better.

Thanks to everyone whi took the time to respond to my post it really helped....

[totalicsworks]

I broke down and called my pain management doctor, she wanted me back on the meds but I refused and just asked for something to help this anxiety and lack of sleep.
She prescribed clonidine patches, I hope it helps will be getting them any minute.
Tomorrow is day 7, guess my body was more destroyed than I thought......

[totalicsworks]

Day 6 and it feels as though I backed up 3 days, my body is so worn out but my brain is going 100mph. I just want some sleep and nothing otc is even touching it.....
I'm not giving up just complaining a bit