Today's update

[Jenny9906]

I can't thank all of you enough for your support.  It what has kept me going so far, and is helping me so much realize that I can actually do this...even though I have several times a day where I am just like OMFG I so can't do this.  Last night was rough (I was posting on my other post at like 3-5am) I fell asleep around 6:30ish...like really asleep...then my alarm went off to take my son to daycare...ugh!! I managed to get him around, get the ice off the car, take him to daycare ( a little late...but whatever) went to the mini mart to get milk and came home, got my baby girl up (my husband came home from being out of town at 4am, so he was here in case she woke up before I got back...didn't want you guys to think I left my baby home alone LOL!!)  got her a bottle, gave her breakfast, and now I'm shot. Done for. It's only 10:51....how the hell am I gonna get through today? My stomach and gut is soooooo bad today...I took Imodium...helped a little, but I still have a problem. I feel like things might be a little clearer today, like the fog has lifted...but physically things still aren't so great.  Maybe better than yesterday???  The weakness is killing me. Thank you guys for all the support, it means the world to me!

[Kbusymom]

Sorry the extra Immodium didn't help.  I've been living off of gingerale ever since coming of the hydros and benzos.  The only brand that helps is Diet Canada Dry.  
Hang in there; I think you are peaking with the worst of it and should be feeling physically better soon.  

[Jenny9906]

Today has been rough emotionally for me. I decided to come clean with my hubby about just hOW bad my problem is...how many pills I was actually taking this past month. He got really upset with me about it...because I lied to him about my dosages.  I spent most of the day crying.  Things are better now, he said he is going to help me and support me, he said the initial blow just hurt. I've kinda leveled out emotionally currently, just still feeling kind of sad about everything, and the person I had become on the pills. :( I know I'm better than that. Aside from all of the emotional stuff today, my stomach is absolutely killing me, it's all crampy and hurts super bad....even when I took extra Imodium (thanks for the info kbusymom) *sigh*

[Kbusymom]

Did you take extra immodium?  I read up on WD and found out you need to take more than 2- I took 3 or 4 and it made a big difference; not just with the rhea, but with cramps too.  
You are doing so well.  My mind raced like that too; still does.  My dr. put me on Trazodone which is not addictive or narcotic- it works, but I know I will get to a point where I have to be able to fall asleep on my own.  

[Jenny9906]

That's what I noticed when I was trying to sleep....that my mind was going like 120 mph in a 30 mph zone! I do photography, well, I actually haven't done anything with it in awhile, maybe from the pills? Anyways, I started getting all of these fantastic photography ideas in my head when I was trying to sleep...and I was getting excited...then I started thinking about how the Sons of Anarchy season finally was tonight...and how excited I was for that, then started thinking about all of the possible outcomes to that.  LOL! Wtf?

I'm actually grateful for the cold, crappy weather right now....gives me a reason to have to stay inside and not feel so guilty about it.  :)

You have a great day too! I don't know how great mine will be, but I can try

[Whollymolythathurt]

Morning Jenny....agree the weakness $ucks.  I still have it also.  The mornings to me are the worst part of the day.  Although i hate the cold i think...we'll it would $uck right now to have to go cut the grass, or plant that tree.  lol

Rough night of sleep for me also....could get to sleep.  I just THINK!  drives me nuts. I read books but i still think of other things then i have to re-read paragraphs aver & over...

Have a great day & hang in there.