During my last few cocaine binges, I started really terrible hallucinations. I saw crawling lizards on my ceiling, dancing skeletons on the walls, ghosts, evil faces, snakes... Also felt like things were crawling on me, and could here weird sounds like buzzing and things. I was completely aware that I was hallucinating, but it freaked me out so much that my heartrache skyrocketed and I started sweating and getting a rash. I thought I was going to die, I thought my addiction had finally done me in and I had to just get through the night. Well I did and now I'm committed to staying clean.
I had a similar type of experience on ecstasy, more with psychadelic visuals, but also dragons, demons, spooky things, I also thought I was going crazy and was going to die (pains in my chest, my back) I had taken about 7 - 10 tabs of e (also had done coke earlier and drinks) so I think I am pretty lucky I got through this. After this, I could not move for several days because my spine was so messed up.
Also, I get very little sleep when doing drugs so my body and mind just could be going crazy. I am fairly certain its a combination of everything.
Even today (2 days later and clean) I can still subtly see the hallucinations and hear weird beeping... and can't sleep.
I have relapsed before but this time I am COMMITTED to a clean and healthy life. The past 6 months has been nothing but terrible memories, self-induced, unfortunately :(
I have gotten to 1 - 2 days before, and even a week (I was out of the country) without drugs. My problem is that when I get depressed I just start going crazy and want anything to stop the pain.
My questions are: did i experience cocaine psychosis or hallucinosis? (sp) when will these hallucinations go away?how long does it take to get through the depressed stage? how long does it take to feel normal again? Is there anything I can do? Besides, NA, I am going to load up on vitamins and try and get more rest. I need to be focused on these and keep at it each hour, each day.
Thanks everyone
Violet