Quitting again..tapering..ugg

[Danielle36]

I'm trying to quit....again. The car accident I was in a year ago not only has caused me daily pain, but gave me suplies to Lortab. Ugg.. this crap is HORRID on the spirit and soul. I have been taking them daily for a year. I was up to 15-10's a day. Not for the pain, for the high. What a great mood I was in while on these little bastards. I have been trolling this sight for days. I have quit ct twice this year, once for 8 days..but I caved when the mental part kicked in. I am doing a really fast taper. Not because I dont have the pills, but becsuse I want off them so badly. I am doing a 6 day taper. Started at 6..at one time, then to 5 and 4.Now I am at three a day. I kicked in bed all night on the first day of my taper. Going from 15 a day to 6 really pissed my body off. My Question is...how bad off will I be once I take my last 1 pill? I have been having w/d through the whole taper, just not as bad as ct was. Am fooling myself by thinking that by tapering I wont have it as bad when I step off to no pills? I just want you all to know what a support you all are to those who read what you post. Thank you all

[cathy5841]

WPOHOOO!  Way to go. Now tell the therapiat and get on your wat to a better life. Have you tried a 12step program. Workin the steps has definately helped me deal with the guilt associated with my use. 12step programs don't work for some. It is whatever works for you.

[refusingbondage]

Great great great to hear!  Sometimes just doin it is the only way.  Isn't it a wonderful feeling to come out into the clear!  No, unfortuantely comes the hard part.  Stay in therapy and start talking about your addiction with your counselor. Get to the bottom of why you use... And do not turn your back on this disease for one single second.  Way to go.

[Danielle36]

Wahoo!! 5 going on 6 days clean! I was put on antidepressants yesterday and hope it helps with my PTSD. I am feeling great and have not even had a craving..though I know they will come. To anyone who is wanting to get their life back...just do it. The tapering just made my symptoms last longer. CT is better. I hope I can stay clean for myself. What a great day today is. Thanks for all your help :)

[avisg]

i would go by how by feel hun,if its almost as bad as  when u ct then just dump them.if you think its better contue to taper . Its not easy telling people we are addicts heck its not easy admiting it to ourselfs LOL just remeber our secrects keep us sick you are doing everything you need to be proud of yourself for that ...

[vicki595]

Hi~  It's very,very important that you tell your therapist. Try to get to the root of why you use pills...then you can begin recovery and a clean life!
I,personally,think you should just stop now. By Monday would be well on your way...
It's up to you...
Keep posting~
Vicki

[Danielle36]

I do have a therapist but have not told him. That will be next week. I thought I was giving myself a softer landing by tapering the way I was. By no means has it been easy. My husband is holding all my pills so I am on a schedule. Day three was rough. I just thought it would be easier to do it this way....crash landings suck :(

[avisg]

if you are feeling strong wd now i would jump now .some people when they taper only have mild wd and then yes then they o of them its not as bad but of others it seems to just draw it out .Its really your choice .Have you looked into recovery care so you have the support for the mental part of the addiction?

[Danielle36]

I thought by tapering 10mg a day would be a softer land once I got to one pill a day. Am I wrong? My body is for sure feeling the taper by taking 1 pill less a day. I see that others have taken months to taper, but I don't want to be tapering for weeks or months. I know this is a very fast taper as I am giving my body only 24 hours to adjust to the new dosage. Is what I am doing not going to help me at all once I take my last pill Monday morning? or will I go into full blown w/d? Thanks for your help.

[vicki595]

Hi~  Why don't you just stop now?  Toss out the rest of the pills and just get it done.

I think you are prolonging the inevitable...so,give it up.  Get yourself some vitamins and a sleep aid. Nyquil,Motrin,tonic water for RLS,comfort foods etc...Lomotil for diarrhea.
Drink lots of water...and just hunker down.
You can do this and we'll be here to support you.
Keep posting...it's great that you want to stop!!
Vicki